....Ok im sitting here at work. Listening to Bilal nshyt and im thinking
about ways eye can be creative today....I'm not trying to get caught in the
hype of partying all New Years Eve night...Or im not trying to be all in the
church....But im feeling rather close to my spritualness...which is good
because eye felt myself slipping....Lately for the last month eye have
been slipping....Doing things that are out of character for me....But
oh well eye repent for those sins committed....And re-focus on Ma'at and
what roles she plays in my life....Making progress.Change.

Man im totally tripping about this cloning thing.....Did you know
the first cloned baby was born on yesterday....Ironically her name/title is
Eve....which equals Hawwah which also equal Nekaybaw.
I'm not sure about this cloning at all....It isnt a natural course...God
didnt select this....Eye dont see the blessing in this not one bit.
For many of you know the effects of cloning is this:
Reproduction of human species,that makes me wonder what
happens to the rest of us......Eye also read how George Bush
wants to decrease the population and YES...It will
decrease in the coming years especially if he's in office....
But the signs are there....From what eye understand we
have exceeded the population rate in this country...so they are
going to try to decrease it.......For it is hard to clearly see but
look around you and notice things are changing.....For the worse...
Makes me wonder if 144,000 souls saved is in fact a number that
reflect TRUTH......How real is that?

How many of us tapdance?
any
body
raise your hands if your
sure
...


*pardon we to define the meaning
of these scriptures...
mental pictures our own werds.
eye-roglyphics tattooed in stone
granite
pages torn from the forbidden text
all there is left are scraps
forgotten fragments come piece by
piece to become
one.*

Meanwhile back at the ranch.....Eye mean my 8 to 5...lol! Today im feeling a lil restless..It's as if eye didnt get a good nights rest...Anyways im thankful for another year....2003 will be one of progress...constantly moving...Eye have a map of it in my head.....

*What's in my head:
For some odd reason or another yesterday eye had flashbacks of my childhood....those years that eye intentionally erased from my head...sort of like demons eye guess.....Eye erased them...or for betta eye ignored em....Eye have held on to soo much that more than enough of it has held me....bound....Lately eye been thinking how everything relates in life to something....Im thinking about being touched as a child...What long term effects does it have on my life now? Plenty eye see them in my everyday living and it doesnt make me proud....eye think eye have been angry for a long time and couldnt figure out why...eye been lonely as well for so long and didnt know why eye felt this way.....Is it all a result of my past experiences? If so how can eye change the course of travel for my life.....In order to be at peace.....there are days when eye feel peace and days when chaos is the star.....Hmmm how little balance or control......Which is it? Control doesnt really exisist...its one of those things that disagreeable folk made up to feel a sense of reasoning for everything. Im not to sure where im going with this for some reason eye just started to wrtie and this is what came out....Pardon the quiet ways im displaying lately-eye have many things on my mental...and it is no reflection on the way eye feel....Im still loving myself and my people....anyhoo im bout to finish my work.
Peace

I'm not sure what the day has in store for me but eye have to get outta here so eye can finish my things to do list today....Eye have finally had a minute to figure out the blog thang.....It's coming along..im still undone....hehe....the ideas are flowing....

SOmethimes eye venture outside of my area to catch glimpse of others making progress and loving life...Children are the innocents of the world...as an adult eye think we should be more available to all youth as a whole.....whether it's taking them to the park,reading with and to them...Just providing that light of guidance to our future...Our generation is a lost one..No leadership other than record companies....It is up to us all to reach,teach and build a childs future.....With that said...eye have a full load on my mental today....so stay afloat with the Godis....

Eye have a love for the pre-historic and the now!

It's pretty cold and rainy out there today....makes me want to stay in bed and dream...Im ready for the Holidays so eye can get rest.....cook sum good food and lighting up! Thats my Karastmas itinerary...whats yours?

Im not into all that trimming the tree shyt.....fantasy livin......Give me the realities of life........
Am eye a scrooge? lol!

Oh yeah im takin up where Butta left off........buy a tee, dammit!

Spending my time trying to find that place.....Peace

"Spark up a leaf...fuk a belief....relief get rid of the grief...
stop stressin lifes lessons..make corrections..use caution with
protection...be the best in...All things....give thanks"

Man can eye make it till thursday which is tomorrow....without any money..Dem damn Sprint PCS people turned my cell off......*sighs* oh well no contacting me today.....See ya when eye see ya!


Im in love again.................

7:53 is the time eye awoke for work this morning...Damn a sista overslept like a muhplucka!..
Anyhoo my nose is stuffy and im hungry....Eye want sum Collard greens and pancakes for breakfast.....?
Who eats that shit in the AM? Maybe a early morning cockroach.....The most beautiful thing eye have seen
in Dallas was on my way to work in my apt complex we have ducks..So im getting ready to leave the gate and
eye have to come to a complete stop because Mama duck and about 7 of her babies were crossing the way.
It was like a Ducktail parade or something.....All eye could do was laugh and Give thanks to the creator
for creating us all at that moment....It was peace to see the togetherness....It reminded me of the reasons why
eye write the things eye do,it reminded me of why eye wear my red,black and green wrist bands,it reminded
me of why eye can't blog with the X-Chromosomes?....Unity,Family, Peace and Love all reminds me of
what Kwanzaa is about.....

My words strike down like missles, agrivating you like eating bone gristle
Atomic bomb, agent orange combat military freeeee-style.
Breathless, back to Afrika live amoung the wild
<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>
I'm not sure where im going with this....hahaha!

Greetings
Aight it took me long enough but eye wanted to listen and absorb.....Eye didn't want to be bombarded by anybody else's opinion of this cd....So eye took my time buying this and listening-Can you believe eye didn't even download it early....Hahahaha....
Ok this time out there are only 13 songs on this disc....Boo! thats the most upsetting thing....Outside of that let me first say that he worked with many of my favorite artist on this joint....
Prince
Mary J. Blige
Bilal(my baby daddy #2)
Omar(BD #4)
Jill Scott
Erykah Badu
Cee-Lo(damn Lo what can't you do?)
Marie Daulne-Zap Mama
Vinia Mojica
and Pops

There are a few others on the list but im not listing all them folks...lol! Anyways this is the ghetto fabu cd review right hurr....So listen up...
Electric Circus starts off with Ferris Wheel...quite fair like....it reminds me of riding one actually....Ok stratch all that fancy shyt. I Am Music is my favorite joint on this cd......WHEW! Man coming from a music background eye must say Jill gets better each time she hits the mic......damn now this gave a sis chills and im not easily impressed.....lol! Star *69(PS With Love) shows Bilal at his best...Music...Man this is my baby daddy for real....hehe! Between Me,You and Liberation featuring Cee-Lo..Eye love it when he sings..he is defining what soul is....yep eye said it! Heaven Somewhere is the all star joint of the cd..and it is all of that...Each artists comes thru and represents their own sound,soul or feeling however u people want to label it......lol! It really is a beautiful song.....Last but not least for the stand out tracks on this cd Jimi Was A RockStar....Hmmm this one gets a big hmmm.....From the beginning it starts out with a deep rhthym...then progresses into lyrics and Common's voice is vamped low profile type of thing...He's singing did eye forget to mention that....However it grows into this musical,electrical guitar, Jimi meets Bootsy,colorful type of vibe....Its hmmm...Will get you high...If you don't get high then eye dont suggest listening to this track...lol! because u will at least want too....
All and all this cd is really nice....Peaceful vibe to it and eye see Common's growth into manhood.. An music.with a different approach to the mic..which is always needed in this bubbling ballin azz society....this cd is fun-even the album cover has a certain fun to it....Cop this joint for ya house....This aint one to ride too....But the creative-ness will flow.....Seen!

Black: black is not a color, but a supreme state of mind. Black is supreme balancement and is the total absence of moods and colors. It is absence of all balance.

Tell me what do you think? *eye found this on someone's page-eye don't totally agree*

Yo a sista had a moment of peace and tranquility....Last night was very peaceful..Eye actually sat still-no interruptions,no calls no bothers at all....It feels good to just be still and listen....mad my favorite things..homemade fries...cut up potatoes..umm umm good...yall don't know nothing bout no potatoes till u had mine....Hehe! cleaned up when eye got home from my 10 hour work day(with no lunch break).....*shhh, im trying to make all the xtra cheeze eye can*....Did you notice the way Jay-Z snuck in my venacular....cheeze..Hahaha thats funny.

Man eye had a Whitney Houston moment last night....The Whitney eye Know and love...Not the crack baby Whitney...Not the in denial, but im still claiming that Jesus is the sun of God Whitney, Praise the Lord while eye hit this line of white truth......Liar! Her soul has been snatched by the disagreeables and im not sure what's gonna come of it....It hurts to watch such a beautiful talented soul waste away into the abyss of nothingness....Nevertheless eye enjoyed her thru memories and playing her old music...Eye got nothing but love for this sista....This all brings me to the question of why are many of our sistas in the spotlight losing it???? Whitney,Mariah(yep eye called her ass a sista),Erykah("all that fraud shyt got ta go"),Toni Braxton(plastic glad wrap sista),Janet(go figure her whole fam is wacked out-so she has a lil excuse)....That's too many if you ask me...If only they would recognize the amount of power that they posses...They would become more of an asset to all Nubian sistas......God bless them all as they continue to search.

eye think im talkin too much-ok im here at work on the clock not doing a DAMN thang......but gettin paid....Isnt that great!...

missed you last night

Peace-Give Thanks

Today is a lazy day for me...Eye wanted to stay in the warmth of my bed...and just lay there...As a matter of fact eye think this weekend im going to stay in smoke and sleep....lol! just be lazy..Plus im broke..How do you get your paycheck on 12/12 and be broke on 12/13? Hmmmm does this happen to anybody else except me?...And eye keep thinking that eye need to tighten my grip on my finances...honestly eye don't think there is a such thing. So eye am what eye am.....Broke!



For some reason eye like taking pictures....but all eye got is this digital cam...Its kinda funny when u take pictures of yourself...lol!



EYE WANNA GO HOME!!!!!

If eye put half as much work into MY shyt as eye do this job eye would be a millionaire...Not that that's even important to me....Personally having my own house,some land,savings in the bank and successfull biz-something that im happy with I'm fine......Eye don't need the bling diamonds,gold,Rolls Royce....None of that shit defines success.....To me it only shows a certain level of insecurity in that individual.....Why shell out $250,000 on a vehicle....when in fact eye could take half of that and feed the hungry in MY community alone......Things bother me......

What bothers me:
Ignorance..the kind where one takes no responsibility for their actions..period!..
when my system doesn't work for me because people come behind you and make changes...only to find out later that-that way did work.....
when eye fall asleep at night and awake to a bloody nose....What up with that?...Alien like behavior..

Eye want to know what exisited on this earth B4 Egiptians.....Can anybody tel me? Prob not-and im not trying to hear your twisted "well this is what had happened" views....So im guessing that nobody can tell me unless they were there.....Man eye got shyt on my mind...

*Enu*: Eye once had this conversation with an elder about being tuned into your higher being...the ancestors and God....He broke down the cycle and gave me examples of being contacted by our ancestors....He told me how the ringing of the ears is a way of tuning in.....If im not mistaken it is the right ear....And the ringing signifies the ancestors bringing you to a balanced level with them....Anybody experience this?

To attain certain levels of peace..One must be......
...Today eye have a toothache out of this world..Ouch! it hurts and eye want my mommy...Gotta get to the dentist really fast and soon...Anyways other than that eye really want to be at home right now...Eye have about 150 items that im trying to ship out while eye update my journal...lol!

The weekend was surprisingly weird...Hmmm...What's up with that? Had the chance to chill with my dad this weekend...He came down to Dallas to get my old truck..She had been giving a sister problems....But she's gone now and eye have another car...So the Creator blessed me with a new opportunity...My hands smell like herb after sticking my hands in my pocket-im afraid to wave my hands around for the fear of smelling like a huge blunt.....HAHAHA!

Ok im bout to close but whats on the mental is: Eye need to work on my communication skills...To communicate effectively is my objective for me....Eye have been listening a lot this weekend to thos voices and maping stuff out in my brain....But eye think im gonna use my pen and paper more often too....Gotta think business like. Organization-being on one accord long enuff to finish something..
Analyzation-to see what im working with and the how's,when,where and who's(thanks to mali im learning)
Commitment-self explanatory...or commitment to SELF.
Patience-practice makes better.

Please pardon the silence as im trying to figure out mentally my plans and goals..and where it,them,u and me fit.
PEACE

Results of some kooky quiz:




Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz

Hotep.
You know for some strange reason eye want to hear "Regulators by Warren G.".....Eye think im having a gangsta bytch moment today....Last night was prgressive.washed my hair...Now it feels so fresh and so clean clean,Nah mean?
It's funny how change finds u and u become open to it...The process of letting go of all that previous bullshit that u have held inside for however long....To clense oneself-self evaluation-removal of all the weight-bagladies and men....Yes bredren yall have bags too...Baby mothers,Mothers,neglecting resp...etc...Eye think for me to see growth is a very rewarding thing.
I'm starting to release many of my setbacks to create that space eye visualized...Peace of Mind! Eye think everybody needs it,don't u?

"Emotional Rollercoaster".....has anybody heard this lil joint right here...pretty vivid....The details...anyhoo but eye won't bore u with mine.
Eye got so much to do in lil time man...Eye got few things that im getting into these days..Getting the vendors license on friday...thats gonna be kool...So yes im bout to start selling shit!!!! Hustle Woman to a Corner near U. Also in other news thinking bout taking a Capoeira class here while im in Dallas....that would be mad fun....Don't u think-Eye need a way to clear my mind..and get those corners of my mind that eye had occupied BACK! Stimulate the left and right brain....."Wrap yo head wif dat material"......Good ole Erykah stylee....
These are pictures of me sitting in on a class.....hmmmm...These are untouched pictures..no cropping-or editing...
Kill Whitey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!



There is a certain peace within the art....Livity if u will...Eye think eye need to learn patience again..Althought im still patient..it doesnt hurt to brush up on it again...To fully become humble.....my definition of humble is only defined by me....U can either dispute me or join...Which is it gonna be? Eye am waiting around but not for too long.........REMEMBER THAT!



Ashe!!!