prayers are answered. wishes come true. if you speak it.........so shall it be

so the time has come....finally! after all of negative energy and talk.....
yes they gave me the axe....the can...the boot(no not the facial expression) but
the let the door knob hit ya.....yada yada.....t-mobile and i have called it quits.
i have no clues as to why i was let go....honestly i don't really give a hoot!
i'm glad that relationship is over- done!
bad part is.........
i'm job
less.
not for too long. who can afford that shit anyway? so i'm searching for employment.
employment with benefits, stable history, room for advancement, 401k, stock options...
yes. you name it. you claim it. and it is/will be mine. got any clues, hookups on work....
holla!

as you can see i'm not bitter about this at all....and for those wondering....
no i didn't have any viloations or write ups, never called in..nothing of that nature.
i was told i wasn't enthusiastic enough.....ha! yeah sure while my mom's in the hospital,
and i'm doing 3 jobs and your paying me for only one....rigggght. your damn right in fact.
i'll never be happy about making you millions- when i can't even put gas in my car.
you got darn right i'm not enthusiastic about this job or you spreading evil rumors about
the godis to the rest of the employees. matter of fact....i'm happy about this separation.
not my situation but our departing.
.......
i mean i actually had to pull out my inner bitch today just to get my last paycheck
out these people. since when does an employer hold your earnings.....for no got damn reason?
i'm sure she'll never do that shit again after that cursing she received from yours truly today.
yes nekaybaaw will get ugly if i'm pushed to an extreme. i've asked for forgiveness.
oh but i ain't forgot bitch! hehe



ok so i needed a laugh.

on other things......ummm when it rains..................
so i'm on the way to get my check and i get stopped by the damn fuzz.
2 tickets today! not one but 2.
grand total $385.
so with no job. how the hell???????
today was one of the worst days i've had since i've been in dallas. but the days ahead will
be brighter i know this.
i felt better once i got to class tonight. discussing buddha...which actually brought
life back to my body. I am ready for the next day.
i am motivated. hope all are as well. if your thinking that your shit is bad....ummmm
just look to me and you'll know that i'm a shitty mess sometimes too....lol

gotta work my mojo!

peace be good people.
stay up

2004 The Year of the Titty: To titty or not to titty? Is that the question

don't laugh i know what your thinking...no this is not a post about
my like or dislike for the titty. hmmm that's another topic.
this post is about the affects of having been graced with a famous titty
on national te-lies-vision. why yes i would be speaking of non other
than ms. jackson.

this is by far the most interesting thing that i've seen in years. not since
the world trade bombing have i been so into news coverage. yes i've
scoured my local tv stations to get as much info about this as possible.
from cnn, msnbc...bet..mtv..you name. whoever has tit coverage i'm on it.
wanna know why? ask me...ask me dammit.

it is proving once again how america has such a disdain for a black woman's
sexual-ness if you will. or display of sexuality. why many already believe that
we are oversexed as a people. but to see the reactions janet's receiving
in regards...is by far the most blatant attempt of finger pointing.
i'm not too sure as to what she's feeling at the moment.
as this was NOT a planned thing...yeah right! lol. whatever the case
janet your stirring a strong emotional brew among the american media.
with the recent coverage of her big bro's struggles...i see this as - adding
that extra spice to that gumbo. noticeable comment:

eclipsedInI
"but it's not just a pound of flesh..."
it's 1 of a black woman's source of life giving & sustenance,
exposed by a young white boy given an honorary soul card.
so it's effects are gonna be morphed by popular media
the real shit i wanna watch is the subconscious shit going on
in popular opinion about black nudity

i sort of agree with this comment. while i've seen hate on the topic,
comments like "well she picked the wrong venue to make a statement",
"it's justin's fault as well as hers"....it's rather funny how we jump
to conclusions as if we were in the room or the on the stage
when this happened. we don't know the intentions.
mtv's saying that this was not planned and it was a mistake...
right....who wants the fcc breathing down their neck? smart move.
but for how long mtv??? while your increased coverage of the titty
blasts on every 10 minutes to the hour...."u heard it here first!!!"

where am i going with this?
by showing flesh to mass numbers of people a black woman
is sort of stigmatized as having iden(tity) loss, or likened to having
all sorts of issues related to not having father figures...while
there's truth to all of these statements. but i am willing to bet my left
titty that this hoopla would not have taken place if it had been madonna.
which happens to be my girl as well...but if you wanna compare...
where's all the hoopla gone with that big ole kiss she hitting christina
and brittney with huh? dead*

i'm going to sit back and watch as america is spoon fed yet one more
thing to start controversy over..media media...instead of looking at real
issues that affect our daily lives...which should be GETTING DUBBYA
OUT OF FUCKING OFFICE.

i'm not asleep you sonsabitches i can see through this. why, use
this as a deterrent from what's going on around us. make us forget
what a real issue is. funny how bbc has coverage of the same
event but in a light hearted way- are paying ms. jackson tribute
as they've been graced with the site of her titty! viva bbc!!!

observe...listen....learn...seek...grow...awaken
the media has you.

titty ram