My body's tired..my mental is tired...Eye just want to rest..Starting tomorrow at 11am im off for the hellidays...and man eye den commited myself to going home man...DAMN DAMN DAMN JAMES! Honestly eye dont feel like being bothered...Eye want to just stay up in my house and chill u know....Read,burn inscence,smoke herb,eat chinese,listen to my killa mix cd's,just be by myself....Not in the mix of all the Happy ass people that tend to lurk out on these days of the year.....Man im so tempted to call my mom and tell her im NOT coming? What do u think? Should eye or no?

My fockin stomach is killing me today...not sure why...

I'm feeling inspired..........Visionary

What can eye say about the single life?...
The last couple of days have been extremely hard for me...Change!....Rearranging!...Eye must say that the adjustment is scary indeed...having to find yourself back out there amoungst soooooo(plural) many restless souls....And yes eye've seen many in the last few days...Truth is im not sure there if eye will ever find that kindred sol...Practice patients and continue to move forward with me...Thats all that eye can do...Whatever happens will..................

Among other things im being creative...Thats always a plus...Something happened to me...Eye found peace in creative-ness-again....for a while eye wasn't feeling the love of being creative...Maybe because im in Dallas-which eye heard someone yesterday declare Dallas as the "National Sell Out Capitol of the World".........lol! Eye think there is truth in that...Had a conversation with a brotha from Ghana about starting his locs....BAHQU(Bah-koo) is his name.....It's really interesting to hear others point of view....He asked me about washing and twisting-Eye put and end to that age old myth that u gotta keep twisting your hair....Just let it be-no touching or twisiting...forever free..

The fall of a nation....
Last call for unity..Strong minds,healthy bodies,clean hearts beautiful spirits should unite...unite to bring about a change..Aren't you tired of the nigga mentality? Eye know eye am....Fed up with our so called Black leaders not leading us anywhere but to the nearest Bently dealership...T.D. Jakes has one why can't eye? How about a shiny new Hummer or Navigator? Atum-Re has one why can't eye?...downfall of man....Nubian man...The mighty dollar...When did wisdom become the choice tool used to enslave minds?...Ask King James he will tell u....So many of our leaders in high positions fall short of leading. Where are the leaders of today? We are a digital,lazy,thugged out,iced down,money hungry,greedy,slothful society. Steadily rising with little or no leadership at all...Victims of oppression on a much larger scale...We don't utilize the inter-NET or World Wide WEB as a tool but as one to pick up bytches,hoes,chikins,niggas,thugs(how does one thug over the pc),broads,studs yada yada u get the picture...And the list goes on....The NET is nothing more than a huge dating service...Catering to horny undeveloped minds...

Ok back to the point eye was about to make...it is time for someone to stand up and fight...How much longer can we sit on our backsides and complain...Only to make nothing come of it....Eye say that the first call of organization should've been from the church! Ha! Church and other forms of spiritual groups should lead the way to reform...How can they when like eye said our leaders fall short?

:::Eye often wonder why we deny
reality, and choose to reside
in a fantasy:::

Keep Searching while time passes by..

In the wee hours im supposed to be asleep preparing my mental for the work day...U know what fuk sleeping...Give me my 4 hours and thats all eye need...The problem is eye been sleeping too long...Sleeping and sitting on my ass letting time take over...So im putting an end to the monotony...This is the lesson of my life as told by me....Complacentcy doesnt live here...It's about change...Eye got work to do...Goals to complete..No deadlines just taking my breaths as they are given to me by God...I'm also wondering how to mix business with pleasure...*wink* "Yes it can be done,Do it with me why don't ya". But all in due time eye guess....if thats meant-Divine Plan remember.....Eye do know that things are the way they are for a reason and im patient-not foolishly patient but Humble.....Anyhoo....Im putting the dreams into action..No more laziness So either u with me or not.....Take my hand....Let's make peace.
Makin Progress

Peace...
Pondering on whether or not eye lost my passion for the pen...NO...For sometime now eye been under a writers block...U know eye think that as a result of the what,how,where,when and why's is the reason we have these type of blocks....It's not a loss of words,it's the fact that our membranes have sucomb to various amounts of bullshyt the real thoughts are buried beneath.....the surface....So eye guess that would mean destroy/rebuild.....respond/re-act.....

Man respond/react makes me think of that old Roots shit.....seems as though "Black" has been watered down by his "Thoughts" of random acceptance in the "Hip-Hop" community.....WTF?Look around God the true music fans love your shyt...And u guys have been loved since......Organix Jeez man does celebrity really go to yo head to where it's got u ranting things like "I'm coming to break you off".....Hmmmmm! Just a lil more thought would be appreciated.....I'm waitin on the arrival of the true art form to come to light...Anybody feel me?

Ok..so this is the close of my lil work night and im bout to care my ass home finally after getting here at 8am......anyhoo..Something strange happened to me today-Man eye been asked out on a date this the second day in a row...lol! Eye find that quite hilarious...Eye haven't been on a date in YEARS....And im not quite sure how to act....Anyhoo the proposal was peace and im thinking on it.....Eye reall dont want to be bothered but maybe God is telling me something......GIT out the DANG house! maybe....However im making plans -major ones these days and im about to change up a few things....

Thanks for the test Godis...took this lil test today and eye must say The TRUTH hurts huh?
Good Night all souls...
Wadu

Today is going to be a long one. 14 hour work day...But a overtime like a muhpluka!!! Hi ya like dat! Anyhoo im a lil anxious to go home-for the Hellidays...I'm more anxious bout seeing my friend Tasha-she's gonna be off for the week so WE IZ GONNA KICK IT SUM KOOL LIKE!...Building and such all the things that u do with a best friend....Yippie yay!

"Take to the page of my blog,47 black letters" hehe*
Listen my words and thoughts are mine. So are my feelings and u know that my feelings sometime out weigh anything else that eye have...all the knowledge and wisdom-thats the human exisitance within me...Eye have said some things just as u have....Eye take those things and learn my lessons...Many have been inspired by u....In this time we've been building(and yes we building) u have taught me many things....Good/bad...eye take those and learn more about me and u. Please know that my love for u is unconditional....Know that eye am always here-supportive in your efforts to reach higher things...I'm looking forward to growing more with u.....Sis,Godis,Womban,Lover,Friend,Ancient,Earth,Wisdom....whatever-whoever......Know that u are truly Divine and that u shouldn't accept anything less than....No matter how hard things are we seem to pull through it to comfort each others souls....That has to be commended by me. It is well deserved as exceptional in my eyes....U are beautiful mind,body and soul...Stay that way-dont change for anyone....Eye look forward to our buisiness plans as well-Oh Mos F*kkin Def!....To sum all my words up eye love u more each day-inspite of all the hard times we had/have...Keep shining Godis. Eye give thanks for u.
Love Babu

*disclaimer*....in no way am eye acussing any1. but if the truth hurts then eye have band aids in the closet*

"Tell me bout the blues,Eye got news"
Eye feel all four corners closing in on me..It's really hard to function with the silence. Im tired of apologizing and not being apologized too...tired of listening to empty rhetoric. Tired of making excuses for random behaviors...Tired of standing in the way of my own shadow..Why question me when u cont answer your own?.Tired Tired Tired...But im not complainin...Ever heard that saying "never miss the water till it's gone"...Yes in deed-we all have and when it happens it can be a real shocking thing...Just try me and u shall see. Eye often wonder where my relief is when EYE need it..Where is the spirit when eye have none.... too consumed in the u that u forgot about me? Eye certainly think so...Eye been needing since eye can remember,but yet eye put all Me on hold for u......To nurture your change in seasons and yet eye am questioned like eye committed treason last spring season....Yet any way eye still give my last thought....And some wonder why eye dont have any when it comes to my own.....I've given them all till it's gone....empty remember that? Some how trust eye will never forget those words......Man eye gave all my third mind thoughts..late nights....Wondering why eye got no words in my time of need...like eye said too consumed in the u forgot that eye was there.....and needed...and wanted....
Acknowledgment of the things that kept it all sane.....those prescious peices of my membrane....Shared till there is very few...
Starting over......New day.......is.......this one!
One!

All right Got Dammit!.....What the heck has taken me so long to write sum words in this thing.....? Sitting here at work this a.m. and im already not doing a damn thing....lol! Seriously just wanted to take the time out to say a few words to my sistren out there....U know who u be....

Eye know that t hings seem hard right now but there is always light...and the Sun forever shines...even when the clouds are out the sun is still shining....And life is to be looked at that way.....These are tests of strength and faith...and u will overcome them just believing that the creator is the Divine substance of all things....Keep your head up sis...U are in my prayers and thoughts....Keep smiling-that bright smile that u have...keep it! and Hold ur head High.........
Remember your Godis strength.......
With Love......Give Thanks...
Wadu