complex simplicity: teedra moses

i'm feeling this teedra moses joint....

"this is more than just a silly crush...i wonder if u notice me.....u gotta feel
me"
"all alone at night i arbhor feelings for you, holdin my pillow
tight...sometimes, i even touch my seeelf."

i'm digging her voice a lot. i can relate to a lot of her material...i haven't felt much r&b stuff that's come out in a few years....but teedra makes me relive what i miss...
i read a few reviews because i wanted to know more about this lady. i've seen a few say she's similiar to cherelle....

hmmm. she does have that circa 1985 feel. not just another pretty face..there's talent there.
she writes her own shit...i'm loving her for that.....
big up teedra.

teedra

no comparisons i'm just str8 feeling this/her music.

yo. mali check her out i think you'd like her music....plus she from the N. O. say she went to St. Joan of Arc school...hmmm lol

expression and buble tea

that's just it!.....commenting on a comment made in regards to me
expressiong myself........without my pen.....sometimes my thoughts
leave my lips only to have knowone understand them. my verbalization skills
kill at times of need. i find myself at a loss for words when i really need them...

but i'm never without words when i have a pen in hand..or handy.
my pen makes my expression seem so easy and free. well i do free myself with words
but they have been my means of escape as well. i've hidden behind them
for a while. make me mad and i'll write a letter...lol well that was then...
these days i find that i'm more verbal than ever...which in some cases can be good...
but
there are times when silence...takes over. and i can't control my need to just
be quiet.....lately...i've been dealing with some issues that i felt i needed to verbalize
my feelings....unfortunately, in certain cases i was unable.....well that only makes me
want to lash out and tear shit up. when i feel as if y backs against the wall....i get
bouts of hysterical blindness and i just start reacting to things.....

i'd much rather express....as i have years upon years of shit on the inside.....
just dying to be set


f r e e!

all i want is to rid these things buried so deep......

so und reas on ing r i g h t/ l e f t br ai n


oh....and bubble tea is some nasty shit!!!! i don't know what the attraction is...
but ummm..i wasn't feeling that foamy milk like mess....lol sorry..lol
your on your own on that one....but the sushi.......YEP!

yall ever had bubble tea????

tell me what do u think of this?

"where do we learn to
appreciate/value/respect/cultivate what we HAVE and not to always want more, or
at least something different...hmmm i'm wondering. it is so UnAmerican to be
happy with what you got.. we gotta get with the marketing department's
mandate...get the '05..the new hotness... and we bring that to a
relationship...we dont appreciate what we have-and what we dont have...different
is always better...as a result, we've gotten away from the lessons of our
elders..."

progression, obsession & misconception

ahh...now this feels a hell of a lot better. i'm working out the kinks in this thing.
i guess it only took a little patience.

welcome to my side of the world through my eyes as i see it!
you may not agree with all that's expressed here but your welcome.....
take your shoes off before entering my thoughts. we're all sitting in the lotus position allowing our energies to connect. flow. it increases your heart rate...good for the blood stream.

i'm fresh off an emotional journey through like and love...that fine line.
sometimes you get burned. but i'm the number one fire sign and i'm drawn to fire. so i play with it..i'm getting used to it. i swam the pisces water...lol. drifting on a memory....yeah yeah.
washed out! but all things drift back a shore. wading. you find this offensive..oh well, you'll get over it! as i'm sure you love u the same. life is dukka(suffering) but we must pick up all pieces and keep it moving. elevation. liberation = freedom.

i'd like to thank all those before and after for taking me through valuable lessons. i've laughed, cried, kicked and screamed. but i've learned through it all who i am. thank you for that. you served your purpose in my series of events. forever or a season...right?

i've learned. learned to love ME. first and ask questions later. if
well seasons change.....and we're about to enter fall. thank you summer. u gave me clarity.
growth.

centered. i'm awakened by the sweet memories of what the future holds.

to you: u. yeah u.....what can i say....i love u more each day...each time you open your mouth to speak..you provide a certain old wisdom. u give me understanding and truth. we've been there before....and i wouldn't have to think twice if there were EVER another chance.....* by chance could we......lol. ok i tried. i know that you wish to be in other places...and that is respected. u are all i ever needed in a sol being. be you. don't compromise that for nothing. clear your space of unwanted idoltry...it only slows u down. this move was meant and needed. <--- by now u should know that i'm talking u. lol godis. the ori ginal

....to the deciever. thank you too. i see past the green eyes to the truth. your soul cries out and it speaks years of wanting to break....free. we all find ourselves here at some point. next time try the direct approach for those who are direct with you. these are the ones you want to keep closest. throw away the pimp card it only makes your purse heavy. lol beneath it all i admire many qualities you possess. empress....at work.

lessons in life. respect them all..learn from each.

dammit i am a serial writer...but never biter.
back on my stroll........................................oooooohhhh i need some NEW shoes bitches....

peace!

this moment of clarity..reliving my cycles

*disclaimer* brought to u in part by a clear sound mind..free of any emotional irrational behaviors* this is well thought out.....GO!....lol

is there a such thing as clarity as it involves u and another?the way i see it...there's this fine line of what you think you deserveand what you actually receive....i mean it's a very FINE line.

i'm thinking if i give out positiveness, love and all that...i should get that in return from the universe. but in some circumstances it's thosein which u admire or adore most who simply....shit on u when that moment of clarity is needed.

u know the dreadful:

"i ain't go to tell u shit" or "u can't have the answers u want, so let it be"

yeah those....and normally these repsonses follow a series of before events.like lies, deceit(sp?) things of that nature. i always thought that if i put outpositive i'll somehow receive that. if it's in my realtionship with family or my partner. i would get that back. right? that's part of the karma process...right?

i figured if i wanted or needed an explanation that i could surely receive that...
as i did/would/have provided u with such
instead when my needs are out front....they're not respected or treated with care...this is where i start to feel...............u get shitted on(here's that phrase again)

i've created a cycle.

old feelings..new feelings...past, present and future. my past mistakes i begin thinking of them...my patterns..the people i chose to letin...i question me. but sometimes it's not me. but i always question numero uno.

figured this time would be different as i explained my previous patterns and thingsthat have happened in my life...but it makes no difference when it comes down towhat a person needs or wants.... but in my attempts to become one i leave room for chances at least 2.(well depending on the nature of the hurt)
the 3 strikes rule..all part of my unconditional self i plan to master.

selfishness(this is another topic, another day)

which brings me to....

NEEDS vs. WANTS

ahhh which comes first? is what we want always good for us before what we need?will the need last longer than the want? is it ok to want/need both at the same time?or is this a matter of convience? availabilty?

hmmm
these r the things i ponder.

i am an instrument. and i was played. game recognize game. thanks amp!