caught a show:toilet tissue(the getaway spot)

had the opportunity to catch Dwele and Slum Village live last night.
it was a pretty ok show. i'm only giving it an ok due to the turnout..or lack of turnout that is...
Slum Vill only did about 5 songs total..I think Dwele topped that with 6 songs...lol
the show was fairly short-but the wait time was forever....i'm guessing they wanted to
wait for more people to show up...well if they'd just ask me i'd told them that
Dallas is a fickle place to see a show.....I mean if you ain't from here you probably won't get
the love you'd like or support. but thats my opinion.

I did enjoy myself for the time i was there. I can have fun in almost any situation it seems.
but yeah i'd rather see slum and dwele in another place beside dallas.

it's almost that time for me to punch the clock...get home, get things in order for tomorrow
work on a few things. and watch Carnivale'.

in my attempts to make work go by i tend to wonder the building in search of
cool images to capture.....for the niggas...that means finding pictures to take!...lol i ended up in
of my favorite rooms....


today's photo moment:

psa: sponsored by rass kass

Now listen, when you celebrate "Thanksgiving"
What you are actually celebratin
is the proclamation of the Pope of Rome
Who later, in league with Queen Isabella
sent Cardinal Ximenos to Spain
to murder any blacks that resisted Christianity
These Moors, these black men and women
were from Baghdad, Turkey
And today, you eat the turkey, for your "Thanksgiving" day
as the European Powers destroyed the Turkeys
Who were the forefathers of your mothers and fathers
Now fight the power, you bitch-ass niggaz!
(c) Ras Kass - Nature of the Threat

I gave thanks and continues to....................give thanks for you!: milkshakes

thanks to the greedy white men who killed countless indians and stole many countries...then claimed to have discovered them...thanks to you for giving us this day off! thanks for the numerous classes on how the pilgrims came to america-yada yada...thanksgiving...even though it's all bullshit!...yada. thank you all. I still had to work. lol I am thankful that I was able to get some work done yesterday. washed clothes, did some rearranging...shit like that.

said my daily prayers. called my family expressed my love and gratitude for them. gave thanks for all my blessings, friends, enemies, allies and associates in my lil life. attempted to open the lines of communication with an old friend. i do miss home...sometimes it gets lonely during the hellidays but I had a remedy for that. oh yeah!!! smoke one nigris!!! i did miss the smell of good food being cooked in the kitchen..my grandmama's dressing...sighs*...at least i had a break from those ghetto ass messicans that live under me. lol so i was able to blast my music while i worked at home.

for the first time in my life----i sat through a footbal game...and i actually followed what the hell was going on. ha! i'm bad about sports. i don't particularly care for them. but i did realize that damn DALLAS got they ASSES beat!!!!!

my thanksgiving was spent in reflection and moderation of the past and present. I do not regret anything that I've done in my life. i've learned from it all. I love my family and friends and I miss all yall asses...........kisses and hugs.
yah mo be my ass home in a minute....niggas! so stop asking me. I'm coming and it's on!

in otha news:
been listening to this new Kelis - Tasty. and i must say ummmm....it's kinda dope.....uh huh what can I say- I had to cop this early ok! sue me!.....RIAA. however I can't wait for it to drop.....speaking of Kelis..this whole milkshake thing has made me re-asses my own milkshake. In a strange colorful kelis kinda-way...she's help me discover my own milkshake...lol! and "damn right it's betta than yours!"



Ok i'm at work and it's boring as hell...............I'm pretty much caught up on my work....so I'm going to twidle my thumbs.
lalalalallala.
hope everyone's helliday was swell!
peace and love.

News and Gleanor:Bio-chip implant arrives for cashless transactions

...yep, while ya'll were sleeping somebody's been working.....
this has been in the making for a long time.....you think this is a joke?
personally, i don't see shit funny! nigga!

The Moon in the Mind/Feelings ~What are the odds?

moments of silence are supposed to prepare me for what i'm about to say or think. well in my case they have. for a while now i've been without words. maybe it was a lack of inspiration-naw! i'm always inspired by something whether it's negative or positive. how could one exist and not be inspired? why there's so much to this series of events we call life. i've experienced a few great loss's in the past months or so. it wasn't until last night i really reacted..it all started with that damn bjork.....lol.

here's how it goes.
i'm watching dancer in the dark, one of my favorite films, i get this overwhelming feeling of sadness, mixed with joy, grief, pain, confusion and other feelings. i felt a tremendous amount of happiness/sadness for the main character. to those that have seen this film...your probably thinking "what the hell was there to be happy about"? my happiness came out of understanding that sometimes in life things don't go as we'd like them, and that there's always someone out there in a far worse situation than yours. not that others mishaps make me happy, just knowing that i'm not the only-does. also seeing how someone can have so much determination and strength while in the worse predicaments.

see i understood selma...i understood how she could hear music in her head...i understood why she always worked so hard. i also understand why she chose the path she did. she was "dying for him to see"...... i'm telling you watching this movie stirred so many emotions....ones that i wasn't aware of-or am i being cheesy? i don't think so. i've had ample time to reflect and think on my life, plans, thoughts and fears. i like the fact that i'm sensitive at times, i like that i can determine what something is before trying it out....but what i don't like is not seeing certain characteristics that lie dormant in me....or have i chosen to not look at those things. of course i'd like to say that i pay attention to detail and i listen carefully. truth is....i can but i haven't been listening like i should...and sometimes i've fallen at the most important times.

it's easier to point out mishaps of others than your own. i'm guilty of this, i'm human....neither above or below-i am capable of falling just as you. what i do know is i accept responsibility for all my actions....- or +. one of life's learned/learning lessons. i'm a student of.............life.

to whom it may:
i'm sorry for saying things to intentionally hurt feelings. although i did sincerely mean well. all i ask for is understanding. i now understand that there's 2 sides. obviously i needed to see and realize some things. but i won't say that it doesn't hurt......but life has a funny way of dealing cards.
one i was dealt.....

The Moon in the Mind/Feelings position:

This is what this card means specifically when it lands in this position of a "Tarot Spread".

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Layers of illusion are removed; your essential self is disclosed.

The card in the Mind/Feelings position reflects an aspect of who you are right now, as you present yourself to the Tarot experience.

With the Moon in this position, you are cast into your deepest unknown. Not to be seen as either bad or good, this is an opportunity to penetrate your inner life. You may be familiar with this experience or you may never have experienced it before in your life.

You are moving between worlds, shifting and modifying. Reality changes from hour to hour; your rational mind has deserted you, leaving instinct and intuition as your guides. All the architecture of civilization has been stripped from your personality and you are naked unto yourself.

i started writing this on yesterday, which means my mental has progressed since then. all while still reflecting on some past experiences.......always learning and growing.


did anyone catch the vibe awards...i need an update....i know i'm all late..better late than never right???? right?

wanna be startin sumthyn? making you laugh!!!

why they gotta do my boy like this?....
even though this pic is not real...it is rather hilarious.....and i love Mike i do....but i had to laugh at this one.

for now

A less than stellar reveiw of Erykah Badu's WorldWide Underground EP in Stylus Magazine.
Almost similiar to what I thought of her ep. The writer does tend to show his vunerable side while painting this musical picture. But the writer has a few valid points and key things to say......read on

words from the wise

someone sent these words to me today....thanks a million
i needed that!
give thanks


Misty Morning

Misty mornin`, don`t see no sun;
I know you`re out there somewhere having fun.
There is one mystery - yea-ea-eah - I just can`t express:
To give your more, to receive your less.
One of my good friend said, in a reggae riddim,
`Don`t jump in the water, if you can`t swim.`
The power of philosophy - yea-ea-eah - floats through my head
Light like a feather, heavy as lead;
Light like a feather, heavy as lead, yeah.

See no sun! Oh.
Time has come, I want you -
I want you to straighten out my tomorrow! Uh.
I want - I want - I want you - (tomorrow).
Oh, wo-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
I want you to straighten out my (tomorrow)!

Misty (morning) mornin`, don`t see no sun;
I know you`re out there somewhere having fun.
Mysteries I just can`t express:
How can you ever give your more to receive your less
Like my good friend said, in a reggae riddim:
`You can`t jump - you can`t jump in the water, if you can`t swim.`

I want you (I want you) - I want you to straighten out my today -
My tomorrow - my-my-my - my - my
(I want you to straighten out my tomorrow).
On a misty morning, uh! (I want you to straighten out my tomorrow).
Oh-oh oh-oh-oh-oh!
(I want you to straighten out my tomorrow)
Straighten out my tomorrow - my tomorrow! Need some straightenin` out!
(I want you to straighten out my tomorrow)
Mist! Mm. (I want) Mist! (you to straighten out my tomorrow)
Misty! Oh! (I want you to straighten out my tomorrow)
****Robert Nesta Marley****

Unblocking and Realizing: TimeSpace

"...You must listen to what your dreams tell you. They will guide you..."

so many thoughts, so little time:
how much of that time will I get to prepare myself for what's ahead? today I made one of the biggest decisions I've had to make in sometime. ever had to tell someone that you couldn't do something. well me, i'm used to saying yes-when it comes to family and friends. today was one of those times when i had to say no. no i can't help you out this time. no i can't help save your situation. saying no really took a lot out of me.

what's this all about?: diagnosing the problem
my need to take care of other's situation and my own. except i put my own second to others needs. which has not been the best or smartest thing i've done but we all learn from our mistakes. i like to be of help. my problem is helping people when i have my own shit going on. putting my needs first. that is my issue and no one is to blame except me. "how can you help someone else when you can't help yourself"......words from someone...............well those words were felt moreso today than any other. loud and clear as a matter of fact!

the feelings I have:
mixed. it hurts to not be able but maybe i am helping in another way. could my no possibly be the thing that's needed to make the parties involve make moves? I'd like to think that it will spark some change. that's what my inner voice says to me. but I still can't help my ill feelings- still processing things mentally.

**************************************************************************************
nothing but space...
space all around me..every where I turn to lean there's nothing but space.
vast amounts of space
but so
little

time......
I would've wanted things to be just fine
but space came through and defied my idea
changed their minds
now all I have is space
and little
time

Resurrection the Experience: From the Cradle to the Grave(life ain't eva been easy)

I was compelled to write after viewing Tupac: Resurrection on last evening. I have a few mixed feelings about the movie and the man but i'm going to try to fit everything here.

After reading a few reviews about the movie I guess at the end of the day I can say that I draw my own conclusions about things. Well isn't that what your supposed to do? I suspect yes we, are but there are so many that get caught up in other people's views, their opinions become yours.....(Ok, I'm touching something else here-later for that). Nevertheless I read one review that really stood out to me. The naiveness of the writer, touching subject matter that I can tell is so foreign to him. But everybody has an opinion. Over time thoughts become dreams, opinions become theories which then turns into a way of life. These are the things that we manifest. Tupac manifested a certain way of thinking and living.

I can remember when Tupac was alive I would watch this brotha on t.v. talking about this and that. But I never knew his struggle, his intentions. His intentions were never really made clear while he was alive. Only out of death has this man been understood fully. Certain images on t.v. or articles in magazines depicted Tupac as a quite complex, angry, talented, big mouth actor with little heart. I disagree only with the no heart sentiment. The film showed many sides of the man we've come to know-from childhood to becoming a man.

Honestly this was one of the better documentaries I've seen about Pac in a while. Believe I've seen many shit...lol God only knows there's like 700 of them between B.I.G. and Pac alone. I like the fact that it was narrated by Pac. Yes the splicing of certain phrases and pictures did start to annoy me but I was fulfilled by the rest of the film. If your going to see this film with the intentions of finding out who and why he was killed then think again......There was little to no clues as to the who's and whats of Pac's murder. Who killed Pac and why? In the words of the slain himself "I don't know".

An excerpt from another review:

The movie bears a superficial resemblance to another vanity piece, THE KID STAYS IN THE PICTURE, but the production values in that mesmerizing movie were dramatically higher.

Ignoring how bad it looks, what does it say? The overly reverential film, told almost exclusively through archival recordings of interviews with Tupac, tries to show him as a sweet guy. The film's imagery suggests that he was something of a god-like figure, offering us images of Christ on the cross. The movie is filled with cheap shots against his many critics.

A man arrested about a dozen times for crimes ranging from jaywalking to shooting people to gang rape, Tupac spent time in jail and in prison. He claims to be innocent of his crimes and throws all of the blame for them on "the system." At one point, he describes his philosophy as, "I am a thug, and I rap about the oppressed fighting back." When confronted with his crimes and actions, his response is, "I don't gotta be a role model." Between his songs that say otherwise, he tells us how much he loves and respects women.

The relatively mundane movie is chock full of little details about his life. He tells us that he lived here and then he lived there and that his father was in prison here. He says that he is especially proud of his mother's having been a Black Panther.

The film is for Tupac's dyed-in-the-wool fans only. And even they may be quite disappointed and downright bored as there is little singing but lots of mindless gabbing.

I say to each his or her own, but if your not familiar with the content study it first before making oneself look like an ass....How would you know what poverty is if you've never lived it, breathed it? You don't, you can get a good idea from my descriptions but you will never feel the pains and ills of that particular society. So, no this critic couldn't even begin to understand how one man with so much power -who then realizes his power could NOT want to be a role model. I've seen this many times, especially with entertainers.

After so many record sales, many articles, many philosophies about things, the world starts to comply with your truth. The truth is felt at most when it appears that there are similarities. So thug niggas around the world heard what this cat said-took to those words thus a following was born. Tupac birthed a revolution of Thug Life shouting, living folk across the world. To have that kind of weight can be an enormous burden.

Shit is deeper than what my man above says. There's more to it than some guy being a rapper selling millions of units, being arrested a few times, shot a few times. As Bjork says, "there's more to life than this."
At least I think so, what about you?

Subject is Dwele: Schizophrenia and the likes of catching a show

And Slum Village hitting the stage
When: 11/29/03
Where: Deep Ellum Live
Cost: $16.00
Where to cop tickets: Ticketmaster

I'll be in the house with my usuals! Consider this covered by yourn truly.
anybody wanna roll call 555-Nekaybaaw.
All gas donations accepted thru my paypal account..thanks.
lol

Too bad I won't get to catch Baatin doing his thang with SV. Yes I am one of the few that liked Baatin and his hyper/mystical flow.
*sighs*

Calmness is the center

words
~~
sounds
~~
power
~~

inspired by winter rain showers- 45 degrees next to chilled.
partitioned thoughts kill, even in the furthest distance.
if you just listen

listen...

are you listening
can you hear the sounds?
120 words per second....did you catch them?
naw I bet you weren't listening

words
~~
sound
~~
power
~~

pardon Eye while indulged in this rain shower....................

Revolutions: no this is not a spoiler post...lol

for those that want to know(::lynne:: peace woman-how u be?....) i am leaving a link here to some reveiws and feelings about Revolutions.

Review Link

i left one link because there are reveiws and links to rolling stone,new york times and dallas morning.

i will personally hold my comments until it is released..wouldn't want to spoil it for anybody.

today's random jawn

sipping on strawberry/grape juice and eating my daily dosage of pineapple chunks....
not those damn DelMonte shits you get in cans but fresh cut organically grown pineapples.....so ya know they off the map..
i should do ghetto supermarket commercials....lol! i think Mali you should too...you got that ghetto New Orleans venacular..ya hurd me...

working on the day off...i seem to love doing this a lot more than regular days
mainly because of the double pay but i'm also here because we are having a screening of
Revolutions taday at the IMAX....so that's what's up!
i'm going into this one with no expectations...i went to see reloaded with a bunch of them and i
ended up upset. but it do appreciate Reloaded for what it was-the setup for Revolutions.....

The Birth

The Life

and

The Death

the story of life...all life.

I should have much to say after watching so until then

Peace
(pop yo fly collars to dat)

natty pic of the day post

out of boredom at the jobby job i came across a really great pic of L. Boogie/Ms. Hill. I don't recall ever seeing this one.
do you?
** Mali E. I know your going to right click this one...lol

sorry the pic died

number 1 publicity stunna or no????

about a week ago i had that oppurtunity to check out Beef.....a documentary style look into some of the most talked about hip hop beefs from Kool Moe Dee/Busy Bee on down to the more recent 50cent/Ja Rule sqabble. this is probably one of the best looks at hip hop beefs ever done. i was really surprised at how this film didn't focus much on the ever so popular Tupac/Biggie--East/West deal. kind of refreshing to not have to sit through yet another look at pac and big's death. i'm tired of seeing these mc's names being marketed and slandared. let em rest in peace please!

the point of all this:
coming across recent interveiws and articles about 50 and Ja., supposedly Minister Farrakhan reached out to both artists in hopes of getting both together to sqash the alleged beef. "As far as me meeting with Farrakhan...it's not happening," 50 told Washington D.C.'s 93.9 WKYS. "I respect [Farrakhan] and all that but it ain't going down. Ja put himself in the position he's in and he's doing whatever he can for publicity."

now i don't know about you but to me this screams bloody publicity stunt. especially with the release of Ja's new album, Blood in My Eye, set to release tomorrow. funny isn't it! what's even more hilarious is the fact that 50 declined to meet. here is where the shit gets ill for me....in no way am i supporting any kind of beef between these 2 gentlemen mainly because we've already seen this shit get violent. there's only a few other things that could happen at this point.

initally i took this beef as a joke.. i thought maybe this was some kind of lovers quarrel or something. lol! im so serious. everything about this screams a scorn lover. call it what you like but i just call it like i see it. anyway Ja's interveiw with Farrakhan is supposed to air tonight on MTV @ 7 p.m. ET and on MTV2 at 11 p.m.
ET.

is it me or am i the only who finds ja rule to be a complete ass itch! don't get me wrong 50 irks me about the same. but what i come to respect about 50, is his mind. and how it works in the game of hip hop. in order to survive the industry he knew what it took and who to make his shit pop. you gotta love that. plus his strategy at targeting the top 10 mc's with his lyrics. gotta respect that too... if i come out and say some shit bout Jay-Z and get his attention-that lets me know im doing something right. plus everyone recognizes you-thus your famous! in that sense i have come to respect the man and his strategies.

who's checking for this shizzle?

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