Peace...Gotta find peace of mind...Mine...
Unusual day today...started out with an unknown caller at 6am-they hung up on me...Don't u hate when that happens...Continued to work-daily ritual-open emails-yada yada...Surprisingly one from my mom-Strange being that we briefly chatted on the IM.....Subject:Sorry
...Happy Dawning Grandaddy! Eye will miss u dearly....All 50 million questions you would ask me...and thank u for those words: Baby just be yourself, and eye luv u know matter what u do...For that grandad im forever indebted to u....Eye ask Jah that u please tell grandad that eye luv h im as well....and that im doing fine-no worries anymore...for he resides in a better place...and our meeting will soon come....1 day......

Poured sum Red Stripe on the curb for u...
Smoked a lil herb to elevate and lift your spirit to the heavens.....High!

Give thanks and praises to the most High-Jah...
Peace....In Luv Eye Trust...

.Eye need a fix...
Just a lil bit of that daily monotony
to keep me grounded...From feeling the
pressures of suckling parasites leeching
on to my every werd....My speech patterns
have caused many to question whether eye came
in this world with my thoughts together..
Peace by peace eye have bits and pieces stapled
and glued to compile this thesis...
its expected of me to remain
at a stand still...Eye remain focused on my
energies that reflect my inner be-ing...
Relax, Relate Release...Completion...
Iditation...Methodical refreshments for me...

Simple things seem to pleasure me...I'm not a woman with overdrawn expectations..
I'm not sure how to post this picture but im gonna try this tonight...Eye guess eye feel lucky or something...HAHAHAHA...

Something inside of me wants to be set free...Eye got loads of shyt on the brain...Needing a release..Has anybody ever sat back an observed people going about their daily lives? Eye have and to tell u the truth sum of us are lost without a cause...Eye observed a woman at the check cashing place(HA! Im Bootleg) today...She was hispanic maybe in her 30's...Heavy set...and a viscious personality...Nasty! is the werd of choice....She threw my change to me...the coins and the paper currency...I'm thinking to myself *self* should eye curse this %^&*( out or what?...Then the higher be-ing in me says *self* no just give thanks that you were able to work and recieve a paycheck to cash....So eye went about my merry way...But it made me wonder what was it that pissed her off today? Was it a racial thing? What could be so bad that u treat other individuals so nasty?....Im not sure but whatever it is...Eye ask that the Creator see fit to make her a more pleasent person....
Customer Service my ASS!...Jah Jah forgive me.....

Just something to think about....Next time you apply for a job make sure its something that u want to do...and dont take it out on the innocents that your day is wack!
Thank u

Give Thanks
Wadu

Ok let's see whats on the mental this day...Im sitting here at work and im not doing a DAMN thing....hahahahaha!
Anyway eye checked out Red Dragon this weekend...Eye must say eye was more pleased with this than eye was with Hanibal....Hanibal Sucked ASS!...Im not going into detail but eye have a certain sickness to myself....Eye like to solve crimes....Serial Murder crime....hmmmm...Guess it takes one to figure one out huh....Yeah but eye hate cereal! So im not into killing others because of it.....anyway eye do want to add a note to the producers.....Nextt ime focus more on the characters nature...WHY they are the was THEY are.....See eye should be working in HollyHood some where giving directions....lol! ACTION!....

I'm about to take a trip soon....Planning on visiting Amsterdam in January.....Im xcited! Would u like to go?

Sometimes it hurts....
Eye was doing good up until about 3:00pm...Said eye wasn't gonna let nothing affect me to the point it gets me down...EYE failed....and here eye am again worried...My lil heart can't stand much more...All eye want is to be the light for others to see themselve...Be honest and Truthful...but it gets hard when truth isnt appreciated on all accounts...Is my werd bond to u?
eye dont know what im writing im just letting go of a lot of pain that eye keep inside for fear of someone saying "u too focused on the negative things".........Lalalalalala! My soul aches too.......
I'm just trying to complete me.
What the hell.....Think eye smoked too much this weekend.....all things in moderation!

Rafiki...Today-This day im really feeling this song...This word...Zap Mama! Go check it out if u haven't already....U BEEN SLEEPING....Anyhoo today is friday and im already ready to leave work and get my weekend started...No plans have been made but im just ready to leave....Go figure! Self-Employment is an option for me...Heavily thinking about what and where to start.....???????? Man eye gotta start calling the Herb people so eye can be straight for a minute.......SMOKE 1!

"Let the werds of my mouth and the meditaion of my heart,Be acceptable in _ site, Oh Lord my strength and my redeemer"...Remember like it was yesterday repeating that in church....Baptist like on a sunday-My mind would drift on about what music eye wanted to play when eye got home from church....No focus on what the Rev. was building on....Just mingling in my thoughts of Candy....lalalalallaa.....As eye got older eye came to respect the church for what it is...a Biznizz....A Biznizz of brainwashing minds to think alike and have no sense of identity...And to think eye attended an Afrikan Amerikkkan church and they NEVER told me that Egipt was in Africa.....By gosh eye woulda put it all together just knowing that all things great started out this Brown hue or darker....Which meant eye would;ve been closer to My God-the Divine as a youngin....FYI eye am in no way blaming the church for the lack of knowledge on MY part! But eye will blame them for drilling these BIBLE verses in my head-the same tactics slave masters used to get us to BELIEVE that we ARE Niggas......Having all the verses doesnt let ME voice my OWN opinions of what and who God is to me....and thats wrong.....For me eye know that God has a plan for my life.and no matter what choices EYE make God is there watching and guiding me...Because eye do all things in Moderation of God....and Gods laws of my land....Eye am to be whatever God has planned...and eye have no shame for that none what so ever.....Man eye got a lot on the mental...but this is what eye told a close friend today:
:
Nekaybaaw says
yeah eye think that u are taking on a great deal..and u mentally have to repair yourself for the trails...my only advice to u that will be of use is...Take ur TIME and flow with all things...there is a reason..but just take ur time and be patient...all that is for u will be yours
Nekaybaaw says:
eye look at u and in a lot of ways eye think ur rushing yourself adding that xtra stress to ur mind and body...and b4 u know it U will shut down UNVOLUNTARILY...and u dont want that ...just Moderate
Nekaybaaw says:
ALL things in Moderation

Too many of us are moving so fast with the WORLD that we don't take time to listen to the real voices that we have...That voice of God....Now as a human Be-ing we have many voices, many sides...so when do u know which voice is of God.........hmmmmm......Trust in Eyeself......
Eye got more werds till later....
Wadu.

Hotep All is Divnine.....
Having thoughts and visions-wanna travel abroad...Meaningful journeys-tired of dropping dimes in the wishing well *Thanks Terrence Trent....Made plans a while ago but some have fallen through...Maybe we can still travel together at least....Hate to do it alone...Much of my life has been in ONENESS, but oh well guess thats what God has planned for my Living.....Also feeling creative..Like drawing or painting trees or trains...No canvas-too civilized-Whats a world without order? Heaven maybe......Eye dislike the way the blog page looks it has no order....lol! Think im gonna call the White House today and let my Voice be heard against the War on Iraq......"Don't let Iraqi children die" protests are everywhere across this country on this issue....man eye wish upon a star that eye can move my azz to Jamaica in time enuff......and be baptized by way of my bredren and sistren....
"Running round in circles,lost my focus lost site of my goals"
Hmmm Eye was worried for a minute that India.Arie may lose her way in Devil's Industry...But im soo proud that she stays grounded and humble to the creator....man Divine is always present and will take care of kindred spirits....Feeling like getting rid of my worldy clothing and make my own shyt even if it is.......Wick Wick Wack! With a capitol W..............
Is it me or am eye the only one u thinks Bilal is sexy.....the way he interprets song.....hmmm He could be my baby Daddy! Yippie!
Im drinking Peach nectar while eye work.....man im secluded in my own lil corner at my desk.....and eye tell u that its peace over here nobody talking to me about they stupid worldly shit....Dumb azz bitches and hoe problems..Nigga problems and any other degrading title we place on our rantings.........
ok think im gonna go and chat with my sistren on the IM now.......
Wadu....Shalome....Peace....One.....Give Thanks

Man im trying to figure out what the hell is up with my webcam....today it decided not to work.....
How important is this?....Hmmm not very much.....Eye should be reading ,studying sum werds....
Seems like everything around me.................Fly away.......
*sighs* sumtimes shit is hard.......Emotions...damn why couldnt eye be-non-emotional...Hard like....maybe it would be easier...
Think im highhhhhhhhhhh!
yep eye am

9 Ether Facts

Peace all People....
Back 1 Mo time....its mad hat in the apartment...maybe that means eye should get my ass up and turn the air on...hmmm...
Hey between u and me PINK is over rated...eye honestly think a lot of these kats on the tube are...Mostly these fake ass rapper kats.....No idea of what hip-hop is or means....For them its a means to get payed and rock the newest clothes....Man what happened to the pure days of Hip-Hop?.....Who stole that shit? Can we get it back in this lifetime?.....Hmm maybe eye should ask Erykah?...or Common with that dead animal around his neck....Fur....Eye used to luv them both....."yes yes yall" If ever u have been to Dallas and see erykah and common roaming the spots....u then too would quetion the level of TRUTH they hold as in-die-viduals..........

DONT MIND ME IM JUST VENTING!!!!!