these thoughts are totally reflective of how i was feeling on yesterday.
ok i'm on the edge. i'm having issues with my pc. simple problem. i need a memory replacement or motherboard. so i get someone to fix it right...umm that was a week ago. this puts me behind schedule with my work. oh well i suck it up. seems as if i suck a lot of stuff up. when i just want to snap!!!! i think all i needed was a little positive re-enforcement.
problem: when needing positive re-enforcement-i can't seem to get it. this is what was said to me "ahh man get your panties out a bunch, others say well you can just get it back and it won't be fixed, or my personal favorite-you ain't have that much work to do-you not that busy of a person!"

how i'm feeling:as if someone cares. i'm pissed. because all i needed was some positive words. you know like the ones i give out most the time. this happens to me a lot and i'm not sure if it's me or what. but damn should i have to ask for positive words when i need them?

soulution:maybe i need to re-asess some things and people in my life. (period.)

ok on to other things. man i was up till 4am watching Ghostbusters.....hahaha!!! man that took me back to when i was like 12 on christmas day. that stuff used to come on every year for christmas. actually i found some kool stuff in the movie. mention of the gatekeeper and keymaster. these are none other than the devils guards. but hey ivan reitman's ghostbusters was the shizzle.

has anybody else seen this movie called the believer?

this seems appropiate for today.
my feelings exactly. I'm learning lessons
and these lessons make me stronger.

i want some hot wangs......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol! damn meat eating dreams. oh well!


Bob Marley - Redemption Song

Old pirates yes they rob I
Sold I to the merchant ships
Minutes after they took I
From the bottomless pit
But my hand was made strong
By the hand of the almighty
We forward in this generation
Triumphantly
All I ever had, is songs of freedom
Won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom
Cause all I ever had, redemption songs
Redemption songs

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
None but ourselves can free our minds
Have no fear for atomic energy
Cause none of them can stop the time
How long shall they kill our prophets
While we stand aside and look
Some say it's just a part of it
We've got to fullfill the book

Won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom
Cause all I ever had, redemption songs
Redemption songs, redemption songs

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
None but oursekves can free our minds
Have no fear for atomic energy
Cause none of them can stop the time
How long shall they kill our prophets
While we stand aside and look
Yes some say it's just a part of it
We've got to fullfill the book

Won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom
Cause all I ever had, redemption songs
All I ever had, redemption songs
These songs of freedom, songs of freedom

6:10am I was awaken by my usual cell phone alarm.
proceeded to get myself ready for work.
and managed to make a breakfast burrito. umm hmm!
left for work @ 7:50am
arrived here...took my usual seat to check emails and daily biz.
then all of a sudden the office went silent.....................
"he didn't make it" said tex. "what the fuck just happened?" I say
"mr. chester was on the dock, he sat down for a minute
we asked if he was alright, he said yes. he leaned over to put his head in
his hands. we come back to check on him and his heart wasn't beating."

yep.death. we lost one of our warehousemen this morn-ing.
things are kinda quiet around here. really hard to believe. I just
talked to him on friday. not to mention his wife just had a baby about 2 weeks ago.
sighs*
reflection is todays focus.



what im learning is to live life to the fullest. I'm no longer limiting myself.
I want to experience all that i can in this life. because we are dying younger
and younger. I think we all should live to the fullest.
set goals
have dreams
kill the limits and barriers that we place on oursleves. just do what comes
natural to us.
I dont know im rambling

I give thanks for anew day. Today is a brand new day, a clean slate on
which I choose what I desire to write. I am thankful for a brand new day,
this fresh start. Today I concentrate on this day, not yesterday or
tomorrow. I live in the present moment. Today is a wonderful day. Thanks,
God. And So It Is!!

thank you t for this. I needed this today.

peace above and beyond....
all four corners.

progression* the word of the day for me.
funny how life has it's way of teaching our
asses lessons. this has been an amazing week.
after having a 3hr long conversation with my friend i
"almost" lost contact with...im starting to feel happiness again.
i miss chillin with my girl, laughing and making up
stupid ebonic terms...i miss my right hand dancing partner.
*cuz if we in the same jawn together and music playing, u betta watch out..cuz we doin it*
it feels good to know that truth exists.
we been working hard, long evenings making truth come to life.
so make sure you checking..come through.^

realization-self:: my week just gets better. lesson after
lesson. im taking in so many things. but at the same time
it's time i let go of others. i'm moving foward.^ like that!

check this, what happened to the poets? i'm not
impressed with the representation these days. most poetry
spots suck! no originality at all. we all spittin the same 16bar
wanna be beboy/begirl...cliched out skip to my lou joints. kill that.
speak form the heart...and flow on.

yo! there is some really good shit out there...im speaking music.
man i get a high from hearing new and good shit. makes me wanna dedicate
my life to her. i used to love h.e.r. too just like him. felling like she's
coming back to be with me again. and this time it means something.
listen if you don't have or haven't heard Little Brother
your missing out on some good good hip hop. honarable mention
Koop up in this...if you don't
know then now you do. good shit.

it's late and i need a hug. oh well im off to bed.
blowback::peace::

Something strange happening in this picture.....



thanks m for the laugh for today!!!!

yo! feel like bitch slapping me a mofo....
sike! just kidding.

im making mad progress on my digital journey into the pc world.
lately i been having dreams of a 15inch mac powerbook. fully loaded and ready to kill!!!!
ya ya! like what i had one this close to me and i let it go.
1 more day to bid on ebay.
price$$$ was a whopping $175. Ok i know yall like that can't be right...
lol! yep apparently nobody had bid on this lil baby. but me having countless
other priorities...got to thinking got damn i dont even have a complete
set of furniture...do i really need this powerbook???? oh well i didn't bid
and im here chillin on my faithfull jawn.

sighs*****

well this is what it looked like a few days ago...
i gave her a makeover..sorta like.....hehe....
"dis a makeover, not a takeover" (c)dead prez