i've been spooked!
when was the last time you were spooked by something. whether it was an image, words or just an overall feeling of discomfort.
i have a tendancy to get into crime shows: like City Confidential, Cold Case Files, American Justice, Autopsy....etc. thanks to Mali*smile... tuesday i watched an episode of cold case files, one in particular stuck out "The Secret Twin."
so, i'm watching this story about a young lady raising her 4 kids in brooklyn 1979. it tells the story of how the mother had anger issues and in turn she'd take it out on her children. the age range of the children are the oldest son was 16, she had a daughter that was 8 and a set of twins that were 3(one girl, one boy). she'd beat them every other night for looking wrong. just an overall angry mother living in everyday poverty. you do the math.
the story goes: one morning while all were in the kitchen, the mother's feeding her twins. she's feeding the female twin but for some reason the child didn't want to eat her food. of course the mother starts to force feed the baby until she refuses and the child starts throwing a tantrum. the mother then takes the child out of the high chair and starts to beat her. a 3 year-old child. she solicites her oldest son to help with the beating. two adults beating a 3 year old till she gasped her last breath of life. after realizing that the child wasn't breathing, the mother and son both try to give cpr, but were unsuccessful. as i stated before, all of her children were in the kitchen that morning.
now, after many unsuccessful attempts at reviving life, the mother decides to take her daughters body and wraps it in a trash bag, places the body inside a chest. picture a school trunk that walmart sells at the beginning of the school year. she then places the chest inside the closet.
fast forward, now the youngest twin is 11. with only 3 children alive, the youngest son decides to question his mother about a twin, only after having the seed planted by an aunt he decides to ask not relizing the difficulties ahead. he's been beaten just for questioning about this so called twin.
years later, now as a man, the 23 year old has suffered from haunting images from the past. images he believes have something to do with the alleged twin. they're short flashes of playing inside a babies crib.
he questions his older sister who recalled every moment of that morning. she begins to tell him how her mother and older brother killed his twin. he went to the police after that conversation with information about what he percieved to be a murder of his sister. of course the police were apprehensive because of how long it'd been since. the story had a profound effect on one detective, he decided to do a little research. research turned up with NOTHING. no doctors records, no dental, no school, but what had been found was a certified birth certificate for a LaTanishia Carmichael. records also found that the mother had been receiving social security for this child since she was 1. with these records and a few other things they were able to issue an search warrant on the mothers home. by now at the age of 60, the mother still lives in the same apartment in brooklyn. the police arrive at her door to seach the apartment, sure enough the mumified remains of LaTanishia Carmichael were found, still hidden in the closet of that one bedroom apartment.
what i don't understand is why? the motive was never really presented. the events and story were so eerie till it didn't really matter the motive. what haunted me was the fact that the mother kept this babies body for 23 years in a closet. wouldn't the house smell? wouldn't the building smell of foul? with the son having these visions and not understanding why, i would believe babies soul had been trapped in this apartment all these years and the visions would lead her brother to freeing her.
but it all makes me nervous and i wonder what has gone wrong in the minds of so many mothers in the past 10 years. you have susan yates, the women who drowned all 5 of her babies, there was a recent mexican women in the news last week, whom beheaded all 3 of her children for no reason. i'm not sure what goes wrong in the mind of a mother to make her harm a child that she bared. it saddens me! i feel compelled by these stories of helpless children being murdered. but i'm not sure what i'm supposed to do. not sure of how to lend my hand....i've committed myself to telling these stories to all who'll listen, with hopes of helping someone who's in a similiar situation. maybe that would then lead me to aiding someone.
don't know, i just felt compelled to share.
peace and take care of your families.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Thursday, May 20, 2004
the talented 10th speaks
what cosby said
In the presence of NAACP President Kweisi Mfume and other African-American leaders, comedian Bill Cosby took aim at blacks who don't take responsibility for their economic status, blame police for incarcerations and teach their kids poor speaking habits.
Bill Cosby
Cosby made his remarks at a Constitution Hall event in Washington Monday night commemorating the 50th anniversary of the Brown vs. Board of Education decision that paved the way for integrated schools, reported Richard Leiby in his Reliable Source column for the Washington Post.
Leiby said Cosby's remarks were met with "astonishment, laughter and applause."
When Cosby finally concluded, Leiby said, Mfume, Howard University President H. Patrick Swygert and NAACP legal defense fund head Theodore Shaw came to the podium looking "stone-faced."
Shaw told the crowd most people on welfare are not African American. He insisted many of the problems his organization addresses among blacks are not self-inflicted.
Cosby said, according to Leiby: "Ladies and gentlemen, the lower economic people are not holding up their end in this deal. These people are not parenting. They are buying things for kids – $500 sneakers for what? And won't spend $200 for 'Hooked on Phonics.'
He added: "They're standing on the corner and they can't speak English. I can't even talk the way these people talk: 'Why you ain't,' 'Where you is' ... And I blamed the kid until I heard the mother talk. And then I heard the father talk. ... Everybody knows it's important to speak English except these knuckleheads. ... You can't be a doctor with that kind of crap coming out of your mouth!"
The Post said Cosby also targeted imprisoned blacks.
"These are not political criminals," he said. "These are people going around stealing Coca-Cola. People getting shot in the back of the head over a piece of pound cake and then we run out and we are outraged, 'The cops shouldn't have shot him.' What the hell was he doing with the pound cake in his hand?"
my thoughts later on this......
In the presence of NAACP President Kweisi Mfume and other African-American leaders, comedian Bill Cosby took aim at blacks who don't take responsibility for their economic status, blame police for incarcerations and teach their kids poor speaking habits.
Bill Cosby
Cosby made his remarks at a Constitution Hall event in Washington Monday night commemorating the 50th anniversary of the Brown vs. Board of Education decision that paved the way for integrated schools, reported Richard Leiby in his Reliable Source column for the Washington Post.
Leiby said Cosby's remarks were met with "astonishment, laughter and applause."
When Cosby finally concluded, Leiby said, Mfume, Howard University President H. Patrick Swygert and NAACP legal defense fund head Theodore Shaw came to the podium looking "stone-faced."
Shaw told the crowd most people on welfare are not African American. He insisted many of the problems his organization addresses among blacks are not self-inflicted.
Cosby said, according to Leiby: "Ladies and gentlemen, the lower economic people are not holding up their end in this deal. These people are not parenting. They are buying things for kids – $500 sneakers for what? And won't spend $200 for 'Hooked on Phonics.'
He added: "They're standing on the corner and they can't speak English. I can't even talk the way these people talk: 'Why you ain't,' 'Where you is' ... And I blamed the kid until I heard the mother talk. And then I heard the father talk. ... Everybody knows it's important to speak English except these knuckleheads. ... You can't be a doctor with that kind of crap coming out of your mouth!"
The Post said Cosby also targeted imprisoned blacks.
"These are not political criminals," he said. "These are people going around stealing Coca-Cola. People getting shot in the back of the head over a piece of pound cake and then we run out and we are outraged, 'The cops shouldn't have shot him.' What the hell was he doing with the pound cake in his hand?"
my thoughts later on this......
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
on dead prez: warzone..and the likes
dead prez is working on my nerves...
i really liked these guys after experiencing
let's get free..then from there it went down hill
now-2004 i cop this Pete Rock and i get to Warzone
and this fool says...something something about your
girl in the club..i dont even bring i.d. to the club.
fool what?? how dare you waste a pete rock beat
what cause are these fools fighting for...the right to be as ignorant as possible on tracks? what? how tight i can roll 3 bandanas together? im not understanding...
i can't take these guys serious any longer...it's all a joke to me.
i really liked these guys after experiencing
let's get free..then from there it went down hill
now-2004 i cop this Pete Rock and i get to Warzone
and this fool says...something something about your
girl in the club..i dont even bring i.d. to the club.
fool what?? how dare you waste a pete rock beat
what cause are these fools fighting for...the right to be as ignorant as possible on tracks? what? how tight i can roll 3 bandanas together? im not understanding...
i can't take these guys serious any longer...it's all a joke to me.
Monday, May 17, 2004
str8 from the email files: FW: DON'T BUY GAS ON MAY 19TH
IT HAS BEEN CALCULATED THAT IF EVERYONE IN THE UNITED STATES DID NOT
PURCHASE A DROP OF GASOLINE FOR ONE DAY AND ALL AT THE SAME TIME, TH! E OIL
COMPANIES WOULD CHOKE ON THEIR STOCKPILES.
AT THE SAME TIME IT WOULD HIT THE ENTIRE INDUSTRY WITH A NET LOSS OF OVER
4.6 BILLION DOLLARS WHICH AFFECTS THE BOTTOM LINES OF THE OIL COMPANIES.
THEREFORE MAY 19TH HAS BEEN FORMALLY DECLARED "STICK IT UP THEIR behind "
DAY AND THE PEOPLE OF THIS NATION SHOULD NOT BUY A SINGLE DROP OF GASOLINE
THAT DAY.
THE ONLY WAY THIS CAN BE DONE IS IF YOU FORWARD THIS E-MAIL TO AS MANY
PEOPLE AS YOU CAN AND AS QUICKLY AS YOU CAN TO GET THE WORD OUT.
WAITING ON THIS ADMIINSTRATION TO STEP IN AND CONTROL THE PRICES IS NOT
GOING TO HAPPEN. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REDUCTION AND CONTROL IN PRICES THAT
THE ARAB NATIONS PROMISED TWO WEEKS AGO?
REMEMBER ONE THING, NOT ONLY IS THE PRICE OF GASOLINE GOING UP BUT AT THE
SAME TIME AIRLINES ARE FORCED TO RAISE THEIR PRICES, TRUCKING COMPANIES ARE
FORCED TO RAISE THEIR PRICES WHICH EFFECTS PRICES ON EVERYTHING THAT IS
SHIPPED. THINGS LIKE FOOD, CLOTHING, BUILDING MATERIALS, MEDICAL SUPPLIES
ETC. WHO PAYS IN THE END? WE DO!
WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. IF THEY DON'T GET THE MESSAGE AFTER ONE DAY, WE
WILL DO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.
SO DO YOUR PART AND SPREAD THE WORD. FORWARD THIS EMAIL TO EVERYONE YOU
KNOW. MARK YOUR CALENDARS AND MAKE MAY 19TH A DAY THAT THE CITIZENS OF THE
UNITED STATES SAY "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH"
-----Original Message-----
From: Kenetra Ahlaam
Sent: Monday, May 17, 2004 9:31 AM
To: Tutt, Tiffany
Subject: Re: FW: DON'T BUY GAS ON MAY 19TH
We need to do something because this is OUTRAGEOUS. Didn't we kill all those people in Irag for oil..damn why Bush can't put some out on the streets for us common folk!!!!!
Peace
what i say:
I'm with whatever. we need a plan...i think this will work if enough people adhere to it...i think this would send a message to the gov.
trickle down econ is supposed to pacify us common folk....but you know and i know, that shit has never worked...not even during the drafting of the constitution when trickle down economics was introduced....
the poor will always be that..poor!
hell im still waiting on Bush to acknowledge reparations....he has yet to do that.....he's worried about his pockets....i say bush, cheney,,got damn haliburton can all suck my DICKTRACY!!!
o sorry bout the rant...lol
PURCHASE A DROP OF GASOLINE FOR ONE DAY AND ALL AT THE SAME TIME, TH! E OIL
COMPANIES WOULD CHOKE ON THEIR STOCKPILES.
AT THE SAME TIME IT WOULD HIT THE ENTIRE INDUSTRY WITH A NET LOSS OF OVER
4.6 BILLION DOLLARS WHICH AFFECTS THE BOTTOM LINES OF THE OIL COMPANIES.
THEREFORE MAY 19TH HAS BEEN FORMALLY DECLARED "STICK IT UP THEIR behind "
DAY AND THE PEOPLE OF THIS NATION SHOULD NOT BUY A SINGLE DROP OF GASOLINE
THAT DAY.
THE ONLY WAY THIS CAN BE DONE IS IF YOU FORWARD THIS E-MAIL TO AS MANY
PEOPLE AS YOU CAN AND AS QUICKLY AS YOU CAN TO GET THE WORD OUT.
WAITING ON THIS ADMIINSTRATION TO STEP IN AND CONTROL THE PRICES IS NOT
GOING TO HAPPEN. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REDUCTION AND CONTROL IN PRICES THAT
THE ARAB NATIONS PROMISED TWO WEEKS AGO?
REMEMBER ONE THING, NOT ONLY IS THE PRICE OF GASOLINE GOING UP BUT AT THE
SAME TIME AIRLINES ARE FORCED TO RAISE THEIR PRICES, TRUCKING COMPANIES ARE
FORCED TO RAISE THEIR PRICES WHICH EFFECTS PRICES ON EVERYTHING THAT IS
SHIPPED. THINGS LIKE FOOD, CLOTHING, BUILDING MATERIALS, MEDICAL SUPPLIES
ETC. WHO PAYS IN THE END? WE DO!
WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. IF THEY DON'T GET THE MESSAGE AFTER ONE DAY, WE
WILL DO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.
SO DO YOUR PART AND SPREAD THE WORD. FORWARD THIS EMAIL TO EVERYONE YOU
KNOW. MARK YOUR CALENDARS AND MAKE MAY 19TH A DAY THAT THE CITIZENS OF THE
UNITED STATES SAY "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH"
-----Original Message-----
From: Kenetra Ahlaam
Sent: Monday, May 17, 2004 9:31 AM
To: Tutt, Tiffany
Subject: Re: FW: DON'T BUY GAS ON MAY 19TH
We need to do something because this is OUTRAGEOUS. Didn't we kill all those people in Irag for oil..damn why Bush can't put some out on the streets for us common folk!!!!!
Peace
what i say:
I'm with whatever. we need a plan...i think this will work if enough people adhere to it...i think this would send a message to the gov.
trickle down econ is supposed to pacify us common folk....but you know and i know, that shit has never worked...not even during the drafting of the constitution when trickle down economics was introduced....
the poor will always be that..poor!
hell im still waiting on Bush to acknowledge reparations....he has yet to do that.....he's worried about his pockets....i say bush, cheney,,got damn haliburton can all suck my DICKTRACY!!!
o sorry bout the rant...lol
Thursday, May 13, 2004
caught on tape
i'm not sure who follows the news reports..as bogus as the news is.
but in recent news there has been talk about the beheading of one of our soldiers. of course floating around the internet is the "alleged" video of the actual event.
being who i am i opted to click the link to watch what was being taken place. however, i normally post links to everything..but this time i will not post any links to this particular tragedy. why? it goes like this: it had been a long time since i surfed the net, checked out some of my fav forums. well last night i did that. okayplayer being one of my stops...i had an interesting conversation regarding what happened in iraq.
there seems to be mixed views surrounding those who watched the video and those who wouldn't. no i said those who wouldn't not didn't. the argument goes: one side is saying the reason they chose to view the video was out of curiosity and a need to know what exactly goes on in REAL life. opposers said: it was highly disrepectful and those who watched have no respect for that life which was taken away so tragically. added to that- it was also compared to a circus sideshow act: "yes, a man being killed in a rather horrible way" is a curiosity, much like a circus sideshow often referred to in the same way. step right up and take a look through the hole in the wall to see something aMAZing."
this is where i disagreed. i agree that this should not be taken out of context and viewed as some cool stunt installment of faces of death. however, i do think it should be viewed by all "americans." turn on bbc news and your gauranteed to see the same images if not worse ones on regular prime time news. why in america are we so pot bellied and pacified that we deem it immoral to view this particular image? why yes we can sit and watch texas chainsaw massacre(by the way-this really happened in texas) and mock what is happening on screen. why it was okay for old masters to gather round the burning pit or an old tree to watch the good ole lynching of a NIGGA!
so once again AMERICANS are shook by a video. one of which we don't know if it really happened. the same way americans were shook after 911. where you this shook when james byrd was dragged to his death? mind you the james byrd tragedy happened just a few years ago. where you really this shook reading the slave narratives or seeing mass haitians being thrown from ships into the ocean....
i'm saying stop whining and do something about it. if you don't like the way something is going down- spark change! sparking change is not criticizing those with opposite views.
"on another note...i'm not here to justify anything.i watched the video because i felt it necessary
just as if there was a posted link to the actual
resurrection of jesus. i'd watch that too...just to see it
for myself. doesnt mean i lack respect. i simply want to know."
for those who want to know or see i will give info on where to find it but out of repect i will not broadcast that energy on this site. we can verse about it..because i'd like to know where others stand on this issue.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ah yes, i have been eagerly awaiting this...
...there's some good stuff on this album...
but in recent news there has been talk about the beheading of one of our soldiers. of course floating around the internet is the "alleged" video of the actual event.
being who i am i opted to click the link to watch what was being taken place. however, i normally post links to everything..but this time i will not post any links to this particular tragedy. why? it goes like this: it had been a long time since i surfed the net, checked out some of my fav forums. well last night i did that. okayplayer being one of my stops...i had an interesting conversation regarding what happened in iraq.
there seems to be mixed views surrounding those who watched the video and those who wouldn't. no i said those who wouldn't not didn't. the argument goes: one side is saying the reason they chose to view the video was out of curiosity and a need to know what exactly goes on in REAL life. opposers said: it was highly disrepectful and those who watched have no respect for that life which was taken away so tragically. added to that- it was also compared to a circus sideshow act: "yes, a man being killed in a rather horrible way" is a curiosity, much like a circus sideshow often referred to in the same way. step right up and take a look through the hole in the wall to see something aMAZing."
this is where i disagreed. i agree that this should not be taken out of context and viewed as some cool stunt installment of faces of death. however, i do think it should be viewed by all "americans." turn on bbc news and your gauranteed to see the same images if not worse ones on regular prime time news. why in america are we so pot bellied and pacified that we deem it immoral to view this particular image? why yes we can sit and watch texas chainsaw massacre(by the way-this really happened in texas) and mock what is happening on screen. why it was okay for old masters to gather round the burning pit or an old tree to watch the good ole lynching of a NIGGA!
so once again AMERICANS are shook by a video. one of which we don't know if it really happened. the same way americans were shook after 911. where you this shook when james byrd was dragged to his death? mind you the james byrd tragedy happened just a few years ago. where you really this shook reading the slave narratives or seeing mass haitians being thrown from ships into the ocean....
i'm saying stop whining and do something about it. if you don't like the way something is going down- spark change! sparking change is not criticizing those with opposite views.
"on another note...i'm not here to justify anything.i watched the video because i felt it necessary
just as if there was a posted link to the actual
resurrection of jesus. i'd watch that too...just to see it
for myself. doesnt mean i lack respect. i simply want to know."
for those who want to know or see i will give info on where to find it but out of repect i will not broadcast that energy on this site. we can verse about it..because i'd like to know where others stand on this issue.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ah yes, i have been eagerly awaiting this...
...there's some good stuff on this album...
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
ok
so i'm unsure of what i need to do in order
to not have this wack _ _ _ shifted text on this page.
any insight?
fhuck this i'm going to bed!!!
to not have this wack _ _ _ shifted text on this page.
any insight?
fhuck this i'm going to bed!!!
on some new ish...
surprise, surprise blogger.com has finally done an upgrade.
i'm simply testing that waters here to see if i can like the
new look.
lately i haven't had an urge to write on this blog..maybe i'm
suffering from a loss of words or too much to say that i can't
put it down in word form...not really sure. so i guess i'll just
fool around with the templates.
brb....
i'm simply testing that waters here to see if i can like the
new look.
lately i haven't had an urge to write on this blog..maybe i'm
suffering from a loss of words or too much to say that i can't
put it down in word form...not really sure. so i guess i'll just
fool around with the templates.
brb....
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
semester end: summer begins
it's upsetting when i don't listen to my first mental thought. especially when i feel it in my gut that i'm right about something.
the answer was pluralism and i put permanance...the whole time i kept thinking....the answer is pluralism..i knew this! but instead i did the opposite- i put the wrong damn answer....so there goes my chance at a flawless victory!
as i'm doing cartwheels and summersalts(sp?) leaving my school, it makes me happy to know that i've completed a semester worth of schooling. YIPPIE GOT DAMMIT!!! yesterday i had all my finals...needless to say i did a pretty good job this past semester. nothing too extreme or complicated involving school.
my personal life this semester took many turns and twists. some of which i didn't think i would survive. i've made it through my trials and it feels good to be a good place. i'm not going to get in on the maymester, but i'll probably enroll for the summer in june. for the next couple of days, i'm going to rest. take naps, go to a few shows, hang out with a few people i've blown off this past semester..(hehe)
i'm also embarking on something new...a nonprofit organization to help people of color learn more about creating financial wealth, stability, improving credit and healthy living. more info to come...later. then there's the music i'm working on.....in the spirit of foreign exchange...i've linked with a couple of cats out of state regarding music...been writing and working on a couple of songs for a small compilation project. cool shit is..we will record everything without physically meeting one another...thru internet sources, email and any other method we can find to get this done....also we'll be revamping endaikeio.com........ ! yes, finally! i'm ready for the summer..........
oh, yeah i'll also be purchasing a REAL camera this summer too.....can't wait!
what are you ready for? and what are your summer plans?
the answer was pluralism and i put permanance...the whole time i kept thinking....the answer is pluralism..i knew this! but instead i did the opposite- i put the wrong damn answer....so there goes my chance at a flawless victory!
as i'm doing cartwheels and summersalts(sp?) leaving my school, it makes me happy to know that i've completed a semester worth of schooling. YIPPIE GOT DAMMIT!!! yesterday i had all my finals...needless to say i did a pretty good job this past semester. nothing too extreme or complicated involving school.
my personal life this semester took many turns and twists. some of which i didn't think i would survive. i've made it through my trials and it feels good to be a good place. i'm not going to get in on the maymester, but i'll probably enroll for the summer in june. for the next couple of days, i'm going to rest. take naps, go to a few shows, hang out with a few people i've blown off this past semester..(hehe)
i'm also embarking on something new...a nonprofit organization to help people of color learn more about creating financial wealth, stability, improving credit and healthy living. more info to come...later. then there's the music i'm working on.....in the spirit of foreign exchange...i've linked with a couple of cats out of state regarding music...been writing and working on a couple of songs for a small compilation project. cool shit is..we will record everything without physically meeting one another...thru internet sources, email and any other method we can find to get this done....also we'll be revamping endaikeio.com........ ! yes, finally! i'm ready for the summer..........
oh, yeah i'll also be purchasing a REAL camera this summer too.....can't wait!
what are you ready for? and what are your summer plans?
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