nia

nia (purpose)
to make our collective vocation the building and developing of our community in order to restore our people to their traditional greatness.

what's your purpose? and how will your purpose effect a collective black community?

we celebrating kwanzaa here
been all around the net and only few to none blogs are in support of kwanzaa. i've seen numerous in the spirit of karastmas......insight please?

someone brought to mind that celebrating kwanzaa is almost as ridiculous as celebrating karastmas. their argument was that most of the sistas and brothas who celebrate it are not sincere..also suggested that karenga(founder of kwanzaa) is a sellout....or suggesting that those who always impose afrocentric ideas are really doing it as a means to get status(.) which brings to mind something i threw out on the OK discussion board- apathy and it's affects on black minds.

i'm going to cut this short for now. please check back for my: nigga's and apathy rant.

tambiko

kujichagulia

kujichagulia (self-determination)
to define ourselves, name ourselves, create for ourselves and speak for ourselves.

what does self determination mean to you? anyone even observing kwanzaa this year? speak up!


celebrate!

news and rants...

just a few thangs i wanna touch on......



up first i'd like to ask what is all the hoopla concerning the statements Ms. Hill made at the Vatican Concert? i for one saw the importance of what she had to say. some believe that there's a time and place for all things....true. all things in moderation. what exactly is a good time to put the vatican on full blast? well let me clarify that, what would've been a better time to bring out issues that have been brought to light out in the publics veiw??? i say big ups to lauryn for having the balls to confront this situation.....peep some of the comments i noticed:

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Comment 1 posted by Sandra Smallson on December 15, 2003 08:02 AM:

I'm appalled by Ms Hill's behaviour. She is no saint herself. This self righteous behavior needs to be curtailed by people in this world. Ofcourse it is deplorable what some, I repeat, SOME priests seem to be doing to Altar boys etc. What I am sure is annoying to a lot of people is that nothing is being done to the pedophiles, the church in the eyes of many does not seem to be taking action. Well, the church is caught b/w a rock and a hard place. How can they preach forgiveness and judgment is for God, and then proceed not to forgive these priests and judge them?

Why exactly did Ms hill agree to perform for such an audience if she was so appalled by their behaviour? She could have refused to perform and read her statement at that point. I am not defending the behaviour of the priests and bishops but I do not think I am in any position to be throwing stones at anybody when I've got my own sins to worry about. Nobody ever knows what these priests are up to but they will answer to their God. If you go to mass, the fact that the priest might be a pedophile does not tarnish the sacred nature of the mass you have attended, it tarnishes the priest and the priest alone.

I think Lauryn Hill should not have attended the event at all if she had such strong views about the vatican and using that opportunity to attack the vatican is just daft. Is she even catholic?

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Comment 2 posted by Eric Olsen on December 15, 2003 08:17 AM:

I bet she won't be asked back. This was certainly rude, but maybe they needed to hear it.

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Comment 3 posted by ClubhouseCancer on December 15, 2003 08:27 AM:

Bravo Lauryn!

People who speak truth to power are always criticised, and always vindicated. It's just too bad she had to ruin the Christmas of the leaders of that organized crime syndicate.

Instead of giving one thought to those evil Cardinals and their feelings, why not keep a good thought for the thousands of victims of the depraved rapists they've supported and employed?

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Comment 4 posted by Natalie Davis on December 15, 2003 08:42 AM:

Lauryn rules! Gotta wonder, though, why she took that particular gig. I guess this audience did need a hard dose of truth for a change.

Comment 7 posted by bhw on December 15, 2003 09:22 AM:

I think Hill was pretty damned balls-y! Saying it right there at the Vatican!

As for the first commenter's points about priests and forgiveness, the church is free to forgive its pedophile priests while they serve out their prison sentences. I don't think repeatedly sending the fox back into the hen house counts as forgiveness. Seems like it counts as willfully ignoring the law and the safety and well being of the children of your church.

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Comment 8 posted by Sandra Smallson on December 15, 2003 03:42 PM:

I hope Hill is as "Ball-sy" in her own household. Somehow, I doubt it very much. As for the person who refers to the priests or the vatican as "organised crime"..what can anybody say to a person like you? Nothing!

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Real girls get down on the flo' on the flo'.. Like a pimp

i'd also like to make those aware especially if your not.....you should be aware of the newest clothing line launched by David Banner. ok ok..i know your thinking what the hell not another line of clothing....well yes and no. brotha is lauching a line of throwback jerseys in honor of emmitt till...ok so now you asking who is emmitt till?..if your not familiar and your skin tone is that of brown...then you should know who i'm speaking of..
tell me if what he's doing ain't the truth.......i fully bigup this effort to raise awareness in the hip hop community. i respect david banner's music and efforts at this. this is worth supporting.

ok so now i can take a deep breath.....
after hearing the jury's decision of giving lee malvo life without parole...i have a sense of easiness. even though life is just that.......i didn't want to see the little brother killed. i am one of the few who actually doesn't believe this bullshit story about two black men laying out in the back of a vehicle knocking people off.....come on. that's some white man shit....seriously.....i'm not being racist when i say that...well maybe it is. but i just don't believe it....hell make me believe it. what happened to the alleged white van and alleged two white male suspects???? hmmm, sumbody answer me....anyways- i'm waiting on the decision for muhammed. that is the one to watch.....but i already know they are going to kill him. got that good feeling......

dem say u too picky....

ever had the pressing need for affection?
the last few weeks have been stressful for
a sista..as a matter of fact just a tad bit too stressful.
god please don't take this as a complaint....
i am more than capable of handling any situation
you send my way....

with that said.....
i'll go ahead an admit that in my strongest,
bravest, non chalant, somewhat passive/aggressive, independent
self...i to am wanting the benefits of affection.
yep i said it.....lol!
momentary affection will suit me just fine....
nothing committed unless--well that's whats intended for me.
just come on over and leave(unless i give u the alright to stay)....nothing hard or tricky.
problem is my friend tasha says i'm too picky to
have these type of relationships....lol! why is it
that when you have a certain somthing that your wanting
in a potential mating....your labeled as picky! wack!
i think we should all have lists and values that we adhere to
on the regular....why not?

all i'm saying is a sista needs a hug.kiss. just some
affection...dammit! along with the usual stimulating conversation
of course that's a must. so if you meet these facts i've stated
call me @ 867-5309eeeionnnnn.



otha news:
ummm can someone explain to me the significance of
a fuckin potluck!!!! ok let me take a stab....
it's when all your greedy fat co-workers ask you
to cook food to bring to work so they can dip out the pots
all damn day....then not to mention your dish that you brought
to work with you...somehow disappears.....did they eat that too? u greedy bastid.
you should see these wacks in here all around the table
lol....don't eat this or that....she nasty...hahahaha!

i wonder where i''d fit into the cateogory....i'm that
one kat who never brings anything..but somehow manages
to have food given to them....because people tend to
want to make my eating habits the topic of discussion:
"girl here, that's why you so damn small-eatin all dem vegatables n stuff"
gimme a break.....go eat a hamhock or something.....
i'll show ya the real meaning of potluck....

*chills in the back smoking on a joint*


wadu 4 now

some hiatus type shit......

anybody looking for me or need anything
i'll be in my usual hiding place in the hills
of iraq, chilling, smoking a phat joint of the finest.......sand infested herb...
with $7.50 in my pocket and a couple AK 47'ems....

so don't test me dammit! i will pull my weapons
of lyrical destruction out and bomb this place....
oh wait...i'll just get my looka like to take my place
so that i won't be bothered...

hootie hoooo!

some shit no matter how much you try to
dress it up it still looks like bullshit.....if you don't know
or can't see or smell the stinch....then i question U
as well......

this rant was brought to you by:
whom else but, none other than.......................................

sometimes

i wish........

that i really was all seeing(then i'd know what to expect)
i could verbally express myself the same way i write
didn't have to hurt
i can chill all day with the pigeons that chill on my stoop
my bank account would get switched with Oprah's
i wasn't stereotyped by my appearence
there was someone whom i could depend
nigga's would wake up!
life wasn't so hard
that reality would kill fanstasy in a battle
i'd never accepted the responsibilty of having a sound mind(then i wouldn't be reponsible for my actions)
i could've seen jesus myself(put an end to not knowing)
bob marley were still alive and making music
i wasn't lazy
b.e.t. were still black owned and donnie simpson were the host
i had the answers to the questions about death
i had the cure for aids
i could chill with nefertiti, osirus, isis,horus, just to see what really went down in egypt
that i could've seen dinsaurs with my own eyes
niggas would stop talking bout a revolution, especially when your not serious
i didn't lack discipline in certain areas
i'd never moved to dallas, tx
that basquait were as popular and celebrated as picasso
i'd tried exstacy when i was offered it back in the day(at least i could add that to my list of things i've done)
bilal, davina, adrianna evans, n'dea davenport would release some new shit!..lol
i really could shapeshift and get the hell off planet earth
that i never signed a 2-year ageement with sprintpcs


my wishing would end...but it won't so until it does...i'll keep wishing and writing about my wishes dammit!

pardon me today was a very trying day....
nevertheless.....carry on

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thanks and blessings to all who enter my lil space within cyber land.
thanks so much for all prayers and words in regards to my mom.
all prayers and blessings are needed.
she's doing a lot better than she was...right now she has a
vitamin deficiency- also she's in physical therapy. so things are looking
up. i just have to help change her attitude...maybe influence some positivity.
anyways-thank you all again! love and respect......

on to other things...
i'm in the job market-shopping around for something
better than what i'm doing and also something that will work
with my school schedule.....rearranging......"restructuring and reroute"

man customer service.....has me jaded!
listening to people bitch and complain about T-Mobile's plans for 8hrs.
i take calls from customers concerning their accounts and get them connected
to their wireless service.......
and i swear every got damn person that calls and asks about receiving
a credit for something that they have ALREADY used....makes my ass itch!
lol! i'm thinking...jeez this can not be the driving point of your day...
if all i had to worry or be concerned about was whether or not I could
connect to a wireless service or get money back because
i did not READ my TERMS and CONDITIONS......
maybe i'd become a greedy asshole too....God forbid.
greed.......gluttony.......only 2 of the 7 sins but the most powerful
words that i use to describe majority of T-Mobile's customers.....
lol! as T-Mobile says: "Get More!"

"attitude is very rude,boo- crabby like seafood"

did anyone happen to catch the first half of Angels in America?
you gotta love Jeffery Wright!

peace and balance

moderation:all things in......

yesterday started out as one of the best days.
then it took a turn for not so good....
worked some overtime at the job.
then i paid my tuition for the coming semester..
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received a call from my dad....trying to
explain to me that mom had a stroke......(insert emotions here)
and that she is confined to the hospital indefinitely-till further notice..

and today my mood is:
mixedfeelingsofpastandpresentemotions
i'm thinking of home in a special way as of now.....

today is about maintaining my positivity- keeping in good spirits.
-i'm out of words for the moment.

peace

Administrative leave is what they gave em'

administrative leave is what they gave them.....if you don't know what administrative leave is....it's paid leave. also like saying you really didn't do anything wrong but we have to suspend you, but ga'head we'll still pay ya jim......also they are saying that Mr. Nathaniel Jones was induced by PCP:

CINCINNATI - Police appeared to follow procedure when attempting to subdue a black man who later died, and "it's obvious one of the officers was assaulted" before the taped beating began, Police Chief Thomas Streicher said Tuesday.

The cause of Jones' death was under investigation. Preliminary autopsy results showed he had an enlarged heart, and his blood contained cocaine and PCP, or "angel dust," both of which can cause erratic behavior, Hamilton County Coroner Carl Parrott said.

speculation....by gosh that's it. why don't we just say that he died of an heart attack...even though we beat the shit out of him.....what the fuck is going on in cincinnati?

from my viewing i am seeing cops constantly jabbing this man, beating him-clubbing the shit outta him as well.....i also see where he pushed an officer, then tried to take his club....only after being repeatedly beaten with it........

the fine line/what your job SHOULD be:
protect and serve muthafucka! that does not mean billy clubbing what you deem as suspicious black men to death. if you come in contact with an individual and you can NOT contain him......use proper measures....where were the tasers? how come out of 6 police officers -not one of them had a taser.......where was the mace? this is not about the cops being wrong....both parties were wrong. but is that a reason to beat a human till his death.....he was high, ok but ask yourself, would he have died if he'd never been beaten? i think he'd still be alive- that is till the PCP killed him

yes there's actually a brother involved...i wonder what going on in his head....your one em now.



my thoughts:
this pisses me off! once again another life has been taken at the hands of the police system...... Amadou Diallo R.I.P. ....i know some of you may comment-with an opposing view.....but you have to acknowledge that this is indeed a problem. a worldwide problem, that has not been properly addressed by congress, the states invovled, city officials. for god's sake they still got Mumia on death row....wtf???? we either dead or in prison....seems to keep popping up in my head now......cincinnati alone has a serious issue with the police department---is there anything being done about it.....are we(black people) out there rallying for our rights as humans? hell naw-we're on the inside hiding behind our security blankets: plush cars, 401k, bullshit salaries, raises, job status, welfare..the comfort zone.....you know that lil government issued bullshit-to keep that mouth shut....."oh no masta, iain't said or seen't nuffin, not long as u taken care me." what i'm saying is we no longer see the benefits of sit ins,marches or protests....these days niggas laugh when you say something about making a change for the better......truth is a lot of us think that it can get no better(can i say that? grammatically correct?no?) how do you compete with the alseep????