The Moon in the Mind/Feelings ~What are the odds?

moments of silence are supposed to prepare me for what i'm about to say or think. well in my case they have. for a while now i've been without words. maybe it was a lack of inspiration-naw! i'm always inspired by something whether it's negative or positive. how could one exist and not be inspired? why there's so much to this series of events we call life. i've experienced a few great loss's in the past months or so. it wasn't until last night i really reacted..it all started with that damn bjork.....lol.

here's how it goes.
i'm watching dancer in the dark, one of my favorite films, i get this overwhelming feeling of sadness, mixed with joy, grief, pain, confusion and other feelings. i felt a tremendous amount of happiness/sadness for the main character. to those that have seen this film...your probably thinking "what the hell was there to be happy about"? my happiness came out of understanding that sometimes in life things don't go as we'd like them, and that there's always someone out there in a far worse situation than yours. not that others mishaps make me happy, just knowing that i'm not the only-does. also seeing how someone can have so much determination and strength while in the worse predicaments.

see i understood selma...i understood how she could hear music in her head...i understood why she always worked so hard. i also understand why she chose the path she did. she was "dying for him to see"...... i'm telling you watching this movie stirred so many emotions....ones that i wasn't aware of-or am i being cheesy? i don't think so. i've had ample time to reflect and think on my life, plans, thoughts and fears. i like the fact that i'm sensitive at times, i like that i can determine what something is before trying it out....but what i don't like is not seeing certain characteristics that lie dormant in me....or have i chosen to not look at those things. of course i'd like to say that i pay attention to detail and i listen carefully. truth is....i can but i haven't been listening like i should...and sometimes i've fallen at the most important times.

it's easier to point out mishaps of others than your own. i'm guilty of this, i'm human....neither above or below-i am capable of falling just as you. what i do know is i accept responsibility for all my actions....- or +. one of life's learned/learning lessons. i'm a student of.............life.

to whom it may:
i'm sorry for saying things to intentionally hurt feelings. although i did sincerely mean well. all i ask for is understanding. i now understand that there's 2 sides. obviously i needed to see and realize some things. but i won't say that it doesn't hurt......but life has a funny way of dealing cards.
one i was dealt.....

The Moon in the Mind/Feelings position:

This is what this card means specifically when it lands in this position of a "Tarot Spread".

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Layers of illusion are removed; your essential self is disclosed.

The card in the Mind/Feelings position reflects an aspect of who you are right now, as you present yourself to the Tarot experience.

With the Moon in this position, you are cast into your deepest unknown. Not to be seen as either bad or good, this is an opportunity to penetrate your inner life. You may be familiar with this experience or you may never have experienced it before in your life.

You are moving between worlds, shifting and modifying. Reality changes from hour to hour; your rational mind has deserted you, leaving instinct and intuition as your guides. All the architecture of civilization has been stripped from your personality and you are naked unto yourself.

i started writing this on yesterday, which means my mental has progressed since then. all while still reflecting on some past experiences.......always learning and growing.


did anyone catch the vibe awards...i need an update....i know i'm all late..better late than never right???? right?