an ego trip...not! a revelation. in love with self...bad/good. i love it all. i am the most confident, insecure muthafucker i know! but i do practice what i preach..once the realism kicks in and i'm no longer thinking emotionally. i flip flop moods on a regular basis....i spit while standing on street corners...and sometimes grab the crotch of my pants as if i'm reliving a past life...where i was once a man. balanced on shaky ground.
i spit words like truth, god, honesty and love on a regular...i'm adament about giving....although it's a task receiving it. but i'm the teacher so someone has to be the student. i'm materialistic but so nag champion bohemian my scent lights up the room. you know i've been in your space. the scent is forever in your pillowcase. i'm of the world cause i live in it. truth that there's a mighty creator...but oh so skeptic that jesus ever was.....fuck your prescription pills-herb is my medicine..heals all my ailments. i puff when i awake...puff before i rest....i'll spark herb till i can't. love me or leave me alone. i'd die for my family...that includes my own. i am an attention whore seeking to be alone. unfocused - knows what she wants.
rude gal..moody blues..in love with all things natural...yes women too. i recognize the GODIS is u. i speak what i feel but am often quiet..till provoked. i arhbor much anger from childhood past....knowledge from growth through the years. i'm lazy and inspired all at once. organized and confused in the same sentence. i appear close but am so far away. fuck time. i make my own. i don't own a watch, still i know the hour. i rise early in the am...fall asleep late in the am. addicted to footwear and music...my drugs of choice. a singer but i sometimes hate the sound of my own voice. fixated on the stars, cosmic astrology, religion and the mind. anything occult i find of interest...haven't been to church in many years. god is within. my own energy drains me at times..i'm often surrounded by those who find light in my spirit...i'm too consumed in my thoughts to notice those flirting with this ball of confusion.
complex simplicity. fighting diversity as i'm simply human. i am all things. not just one. shallow and deep..swimming in the same ocean. gone off the deep end just to make a point. celibate with sex on the mind constantly..humorous and serious the next. ass lover by law...with a dislike for my own breast. lol. excited on the inside but i rarely smile on the out..attracted to some of god's most beautiful creations. struggling vegetarian with a weakness for cheese...the peace keeper and shit starter. the knowledge and the dummy. gift and the curse. southern drawl speaking proper grammer "run..on sentence" fragments....through thoughts. drip drop of the mind...water. think b4 i speak...forget to think b4 reacting...emotional nonchalant rollercoaster....riding this life.
i am complex.
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Great, really great. Your writing is fluid, open ended and inclusive. You are everything and nothing, you don't ask any questions but yet you have the answers. I feel like I've been missing in the illusion of non reality, now I've found the Goddess in you and me and everything around me. Thank you..
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