Tuesday, July 01, 2003

she's gone "postal"

I'm at my breaking point at this job!!!! I'm about to lose my fucking
mind. having to deal with people who don't know what the hell is
going on. this is extremely hard to do. we have appointed people to
help us with our process. funny thing is every two to three days
the damn process changes. and they wonder why shit is all fucked up.
how do you even know what process works or not if the shit changes
every other day. so this makes my job harder.

nobody's listening to the folk that's familiar with the work. this
is where the problem comes in. how can one change something that
he knows nothing about??? and 2 months later none of it has worked!!!
dumbasses.....lol! it's all funny but sad to me. i know that i can no longer
stress myself out about bullshit that i deal with at work. i know that it's
unhealthy for me to consume myself in whats going on here till i can't function
on my off time. i'm tired of feeling like that. and then dealing with
my own personal issues and issues with friends or whatever. it's too much
i just want to quit!!!!!!!!!! i want to fucking quit!! i want to go back to
birmingham........i want to dis-associate myself from selfish people, this oppressive
ass job, and backstabbers i've come to
know. i want to leave this hot ass city.

all this stuff hurts because i figure if i live my life in a positive manner
then positive-ness will be shown. but that ain't the case. Nothing
here makes me smile at all...not even a little.

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